From: SunReyes Date: 25 May 2002 21:11:14 -0700 Subject: Sleeping Beauty DRR Source: atxc Title: Sleeping Beauty Author: SunReyes < sunreyes01@yahoo.com > Spoilers: Audrey Pauley Doggett POV Sleeping beauty, oh that is what you are. Hardly sleeping though. I can't imagine life without you Monica. I wouldn't want to either. Oh please awaken with a kiss upon your lips of my breath upon your own. I would surely give my life to save yours, how could I not? After all you've done for me; Luke and his death, you were there. You stood before me when the darkness seeped into my blood and tried to swallow me whole. You were there always and I feel I have betrayed you and your trust. I should have kissed you that night, oh how I wish I had, perhaps your fate would have been different. Oh how I wish you could hear me and feel my tears rest upon your bed. Please don't be gone, don't leave me here alone on this cold blue wonder. I can't go on, I know you'd hate me if I should not try, but what's the use when everyone you love has died? What reason is there to be strong, when your strength has been lost? You are my strength Monica, and my life. You've shaped every aspect for the better part of the last two years and I can't, I won't go on. You must awaken, if not for yourself than for me. Perhaps I am selfish in asking that of you, but I need you. If you shall here my plead and enlighten my world I will no longer hide behind the curtain of darkness. Instead I shall come out and tell you how I feel, how I long to spend every waking hour with you. I owe it to you after all you've done to help me past my pain. How could I not? I hold your hand waiting for the slightest sign and fearing the worst. There's no response from you and I shall wait my whole life. We don't have that though. They believe your dead and I won't follow in their trail of myths. Perhaps you're rubbing off on me more than I've noticed, but I know you're not gone. We've always had a connection, from the moment I met you I knew you were different, special. We've been connected since and I can't shake the feeling there is something more to all of it. Maybe I just don't want to let go, but I can't. I know you're alive somehow through the slightest of miracles you'll find your way back home. Monica, you must. I know you're there, in a strange place of sorts hanging on with some dim hope. I have hope that you'll awaken and hope in 'us'. We can make this happen, just please show some sign that you're still alive. I can't keep the doctors from their own theories, but I have my own too. I know you can't be gone, we never said our goodbye's. Our lives together our just forming, how can it slip us by? We never had the perfect life, either of us, but there's still time. Time is running out soon Monica, and they'll want to take your heart from me. But I want it in you, to love and to cherish. Not in some stranger. You're still alive, I know it and I know you want to come back too, you must. You must know how I feel about you Monica. How could you not? I suppose things could have turned out differently Friday night, but at least we shared that precious moment in time. I struggle at the short-lived memory of us and how I wish we could have had more. Please Monica, I need you and you need me. We're a team. You told me when Luke died that we'd get through this and it took time but we did. Monica we have to get through this right now, you and me. We can't put the world on hold, you've got to show some sign that you're alive, to the doctors and to the world. I know you can. You know you can. Please Monica, I love you. Please don't stay asleep forever my love. You truly are a beauty only seen in fairy tales. Sleeping Beauty, oh please don't stay forever asleep awaken my love so we can live our own fairy tale ending.