From: The Fox Date: 2 Oct 2002 08:17:20 -0700 Subject: xfc: Some Days by The Fox Source: atxc Some Days by The Fox TITLE: Some Days AUTHOR: The Fox E-MAIL: xmarksthespot8@hotmail.com SPOILERS: Maybe all? RATING: PG-13 for profanity CLASSIFICATION: M/S DISCLAIMER: I deny everything. SUMMARY: Some days it's hard to go on. Mulder's random thoughts. AUTHOR'S NOTE: Just a short one. Haven't attempted one of these before, so would like to know what you think. Thanks to Kimpa, as always, for beta work and also for the warm website! www.kimpart.com where my stories have been archived. (www.kimpart.com/foxden.html) XXXXXXXXXX Some Days by The Fox Some days it's hard to go on. Just to rise in the morning can be a struggle, to exist a battlefield. I wish I could just erase days like these. I hate feeling like shit and most of all I hate transmitting this onto others. Days like this I wish I had never been born. Some days like these come and go and can almost drive me insane. I feel these emotions ebb forth and I'm unable to grasp them before they erupt within me. I can almost feel the strain of my mind gripping for a stronghold on reality, to keep myself under control. Some days it's exhausting just keeping it all together. The world continues to rotate regardless of my inner turmoil. Some days I wonder if it's all worth it. Why persist with life when life may be eradicated in less than 10 years from now? Some days it all seems pointless. Then I remember the reason I still exist: my one strength, yet my weakness. Scully. Some days I forget but she reminds me. She is a gift. She is my life. She keeps me sane. Together we can find the courage to go on. Together we will retrieve our son. Together we will eradicate those bastards that have inflicted pain upon us. Together we will find a way. Some days I have to remember and hold onto this within my very soul. Some days are just so fucking difficult but together we can continue. Some days I just have to keep going. Some day I hope it will no longer be a struggle. I have to believe in that some day. I have to believe that some day we will win.