From: "Mo And Car" Date: Sat, 10 Apr 99 11:37:42 PDT Subject: fanfic submission Sorry Son Of A Bitch By Carol Murphy 24-01-98 MSR post Redux 2 Just a really short one I thought I'd send since I had it on a disk. I've been writing fanfic since 1995..I have all kinds.I have a long funny one where they're both stuck in hospital. This one is really mushy but they're not all like that. Please mail me back. "Scully...?" Mulder poked his head in the door of Scullys hospital room. she was lying on her side facing away from him. He walked quietly around the bed and loo ked at her sleeping form. she was curled up in the bed, her small delicate body like a childs. He reached out and touched her hair, letting his fingers brush lightly against her cheek. He sat down on a chair and took her small hand in his. He closed his eyes and soaked in her presence, her smell, her aura, her very being. To think he could have lost her in this stupid pointless quest evoked a feeling of self hatred for bringi ng her so close to death. He squeezed her hand tighter. "Mulder..." Scully blinked in the darkness as she saw him sitting nex t to the bed. "How long have you been here?" "Long enough." He smiled and she thought how beautiful he was with the light from the rising sun shining in the window. "What time is it?" she whispered sleepily. "Around five." "Five? Mulder, is there something wrong?" "No, no, I just dropped by to see you last night and decided to stay" "You've been here all night?" she asked incredulously. "That chai r must have been terrible to sleep in" "I didn't sleep." Scully frowned and sat up. "Mulder... What were you doing?" "Thinking" He kissed her hand. "About what, Mulder?" "You" He smiled slowly. "Mulder.. Are you alright?" "How could I not be alright? My favourite person in the whole world is on the mend. she's here, right here." He kissed her hand again. Scully smiled tend erly. "What were you thinking about me for, Mulder?" He got up and sat on her bed, still holding her hand. "I was thinking how stupid I am. I'm so selfish, Scully. I run blindly searching for the truth, dragging everybody with me. Taking you down with me. I can 't believe you almost d..." He touched her cheek as tears ran down his own. "Oh Muld er.." Scully whispered, tears welling in her own eyes. "It wasn't your fault..." "Yes it was, I'm a sorry son of a bitch" "Mulder" She took his hand and pulled him down onto the bed. He lay beside her on his side facing her. He kicked off his shoes and she pulled off his pants. Then the lay facing each other, Scully in a nightie and Mulder in a t-shirt and boxers. "Hold me Mulder" She whispered. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her tight against his body. They were both aware of how good it felt, how well they fit together. "Mulder, listen to me now, this was not your fault, it's their fault.= Do you hear me ... Not your fault." He nodded against her. she looked at him, running her hands through his hair. "You are the most beautiful, caring, loving man I have ever know n..." She looked deep into the misty pools of his eyes. she wanted to dive into him and never resurface. "Baby..." Mulders voice was so quiet it was like a breath. " Baby..= . I need you..." He kissed he forehead and pulled her even closer. "..I want you..." He kissed her nose. "...I love you..." He kissed her on the mouth. Her lips were soft aga inst his. He pulled away, biting his lip. "I'm sorry" He looked away confused and scare d. "Don't be" She took his face in her hands "You're my baby... I... love...you" She stat ed before she kissed him. "Don't you ever think of dying, okay" Mulder whispered , his voice choked with tears. "I'll do my best" She kissed his salty cheeks "Let's make a pac t not to die" "Okay" Scully grinned "Why don't we kiss on it?" "That's fine with me" They kissed again, Scully pulled away. "Jus t one more thing?" "Uh-Huh?" "Where did you come up with calling yourself a sorry son of a bitch?" "Your brother called me that" "Bill said that to you..aw, my poor baby" she hugged his close, his head on her chest. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He listened to her heartbeat and the soft rise and fall of her cheat. She held his head in place, her fingers in his hair. "If I never move again I'll be happy. This is my favourite place in the world. Scully..." "Yes?" "I love you Scully" "I love you too Mulder" And for the first time in their lives they truely belonged. THE END