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Talitha Cumi:  Second Chances

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Disclaimer: We didn't create these folks.  If we had, we wouldn't be
teaching high school English and wishing we had lives.  Don't sue us. 
'Nough said.  If you like this, let us know- feedback is a good and happy
thing!  If not, well, we'll forgive youl...

For the crowd gathered in 
the Cafe -- don't you people ever go home? <g>

Part one
******************


First Baptist Hospital

Baltimore, MD

3:30 AM

May 19, 1996



****



Scully's first conscious breath brought her to her senses 
quickly as the inhalation of air caused her lungs to burn as 
if on fire.  Her eyes snapped open at the pain.  She was 
greeted with the sterile whiteness of a hospital ceiling and 
the outline of an exam cubicle curtain, which was a fuzzy 
vision at best. Her eyes felt heavy and clogged.



<How did I get here?> she thought.



<Oh Yeah... Bonmill Road>  the images flew across her 
mind.

She had had her gun up and was ready to fire at the big 
man approaching Jeremiah Smith, and Mulder had handed 
over  to Smith the weapon- the spike- gripped so tightly in 
his palm and yelled at her to not shoot and run away.  She  
had looked at him in stunned confusion, her lack of 
response the catalyst for Mulder's flying tackle that buried 
her beneath him.  Vaguely she remembered his hands over 
her mouth and nose and his head buried between her neck 
and shoulder.  Also, the weight of him on her suddenly and 
the blow to her head as she hit the ground-breath and vision 
leaving her simultaneously as they fell. 

<So much has 
happened in so few hours.  Mulder?  Where is he?>



As if on cue, the curtain parted and she was greeted by a 
fuzzy outline of a woman's face and a white lab coat.  
"Agent Scully?  Can you hear me?"



Dana tried to get the words out but her throat had taken on 
the quality of sandpaper.  "Uh hmm" was all that she could 
manage.  <How did I get like this?>



"Agent Scully, I'm Dr. Gordon.  You've experienced a 
reaction to a toxic substance... that is the cause of the 
inflammation you must be feeling. You've also got a nasty 
bump on the back of your head."




She licked her lips and tried to speak again. "Mu-Mulder? 
Wh-"
 


"Where is your partner?" the doctor finished her thought for 
her.  "He's next door.  For now you two are being 
quarantined away from the rest of the hospital population.  
We aren't sure how you ended up this way or what type of 
toxin has entered your system."



"How did I get here?"



"Apparently there was an anonymous call alerting 
paramedics to your location.  When they arrived Agent 
Mulder was conscious, you were not. He alerted us to the 
fact there might be a toxic substance exposure... I've never 
seen anything like it.  It seems that you two may know 
more about this than we do. "  The doctor's eyes seemed to 
ask a question.



"I need to see my partner..."  Scully struggled to get up, 
encumbered by the hospital gown,   <I guess I haven't been 
here that long, but obviously long enough>



"Not so fast, you need to rest."  Dr. Gordon firmly placed 
her hands on Scully's shoulders to plant her back on the 
bed.

 

Dana felt her head spin from the exertion and reluctantly 
let her body take the time it needed, barely aware that the 
doctor had taken her leave. Soon, though, her head began 
to clear again and she heard a rustling of the curtain and 
shuffle of feet.  Opening her eyes she was greeted with a 
view of her  haggard partner.   <My vision must be getting 
better, he looks like hell.>   He had red inflamed areas 
around his eyes, nose and mouth.  He looked the way she'd 
found him the night Deep Throat was murdered.  "Mulder?  
You okay?"



"I'm fine, Scully, we're fine... just rest." he grasped her hand 
for emphasis.



"Mulder, do I look as bad as  you look."  She tried to grin 
but found it too painful.



"No, you could never look that bad."  Even through his 
swollen eyes she could still see the twinkle that always 
accompanied his flirting.



"I passed out when I hit the ground.... What happened."



He looked away from her for a second. "I'm sorry about 
being rough with you... but shooting either of them would 
have endangered us more... We were too close to them."  


She looked at him questioningly.



"Their blood is toxic to us you know... just like what 
happened to me on the sub.  We could have died.  I needed 
to get you as far away from them as possible."

"Mulder, 
what happened to Jeremiah Smith?"



"He's dead, Scully... and so is the other one, the 'bounty 
hunter'.  They pretty much destroyed each other 
simultaneously from what I can tell.  I didn't see it 
happen..."



"That's why ... you were protecting our 
airways."

Realization hit Scully.   "Oh Mulder, your 
mother...."



Mulder just nodded, lowering his eyes to conceal his pain. 
He looked like he wanted to cry, nonetheless.



"I don't think there's much hope for her at this point."  he 
mumbled, more to himself than his partner.



"Mulder, there's always hope... she might come through on 
her own.... But... there are others out there.  I know where 
they are."  Scully squeezed his hand reassuringly and told 
him of the facts she'd uncovered only hours earlier- of the 
identical men who bore the name Jeremiah Smith.



****


Darkness covered the black sedan, its lone occupant 
observing the red-haired woman peering pensively from the 
third floor window as he drew a long drag from a barely lit 
cigarette, snubbed it in the ashtray, and tried to imagine her 
thoughts.  Was she worried for the man resting in the next 
room?  Grateful for their hard won escape hours earlier? 
Angry at the recent turn of events designed to force her to 
face her powerlessness and insignificance in the overall 
plan?



Smiling at the plethora of possible causes for her pain, he 
reached for another cigarette- vowing silently to himself to 
enjoy only a brief taste of its smoky pleasure.  Second 
chances, after all, were often few and far between.



****

End part one





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Talitha Cumi:  Second Chances

Part 2 of 8


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Disclaimer in part one.





Dana Scully turned away from the window, surprised at the 
unsettled nervousness which had risen from deep in her 
stomach.  She wanted to be at home, where should could at 
least pretend to herself that she was safe.  Hospitals made 
her nervous now- they were too exposed, too many people 
coming in and out, too many opportunities for switched 
medications, faceless individuals  with grim scenarios for 
destruction.



She grimaced to herself at the multitude of dangers which 
her mind to easily placed around them.



Settling onto the edge of the bed, she forced herself to push 
the nerves down.  There were very real problems to be 
dealt with and she had no time for vague fears.  Mulder 
was on the verge of another traumatic event for which he 
could potentially self destruct in a cataclysm of self blame 
and remorse.  His mother was dying and what he believed 
to be the last chance to save her had slipped through his 
hands.



Restlessness forcing her once again to her feet, she paced 
past an open door, caught sight of herself in the bathroom 
mirror.  Pulled towards it, she paused to consider the 
changes in her life as they played out across her face.



Usually she was proficient at containing every thought and 
emotion far away from her face, but tonight she found 
herself laid bare by the events of the previous weeks.  The 
circles beneath her eyes were deepened by the florescent 
lights and the recent toxic exposure, while her eye 
themselves seemed hollow and empty as she faced her own 
worst fears as they were reflected in her partner's life.



His mother was- is, she corrected herself- all he has of the 
time before, the only person who remembered Sam with 
the gentle memory of a family member.  Her death would 
most likely push Mulder's search for his sister to a fervor 
which he would not be allowed to survive.  Dana had 
excepted long ago that his continued survival- both real and 
professional- depended heavily upon a certain degree of 
calculated failure.  They could plod along together forever 
towards the Truth, always just a step away -- close enough 
to smell but not see or touch, just balanced on a razor's 
edge between futility and success.



A sigh pushed its way through her lips almost of it's own 
accord and she turned back to her bed.  She was just so 
tired....



****



The glowing dial of his wristwatch read 3:30- he hadn't 
slept and wouldn't anytime soon.  Somewhere out there was 
a man with answers to all his questions, a man who could 
save his mother and redeem him- at least partially- for his 
ineptitude.  But Jeremiah Smith wouldn't last long against 
the forces which sought to destroy.  

He couldn't sleep.  
There was too much to be done.  

Rising quickly and 
quietly, Fox Mulder dressed in darkness and disappeared 
into the night.



****



Dana awoke early with a certain sense of foreboding.  
Something was wrong.  It didn't take long for that 
something to present itself.



Mulder was gone.

At some point during the night he had 
slipped out of the hospital and gone, she knew, in search of 
an uncertain savior.



Dana knew that he was desperate- understood that 
desperation on a level that frightened her.  What would she 
have traded for this same opportunity when her father or 
sister could have been saved?



And he was out there somewhere, blindly searching for a 
shred of hope to cling to.



She could only pray that he wouldn't find it before she 
found him.



****



New York City

May 20th 
11am




Mulder paid off the cab a block early and exited quickly, 
looking around for any possible tail.  Sensing he was alone 
he continued one block to a three story apartment building - 
3813 Bay Bridge.  This New York address was one of six 
that Scully had found for "Jeremiah Smith" - it hadn't taken 
long for him to duplicate her research.  He didn't pause to 
consider the time he could have saved by simply asking for 
her help. 

The "second"Jeremiah Smith's apartment was at 
the end of the hallway on the third floor.  The flimsy brown 
door looked like all the others, with the exception of the 
yellow police tape drawn accross the entry.  Mulder looked 
at it -- deciding whether to break in.  



"He's not there no more!"  a brusque woman's voice called 
out. 

Mulder turned, seeing a middle-aged woman with too 
much hairspray and too much makeup lumber toward him 
from an apartment down the hallway.  

"The guy that lived there -- he got hauled to jail in the 
middle of the night."



"What? "  Mulder turned his full attention to the woman.  
"What did he do?"  



"Cops said he was running a drug lab."



"NYPD?"



"Naw, it was just like last weeks 'Cops' -- DEA, I think.  
They's come in running with machine guns."  

Taking in the 
appearance of the man in front of her, the woman lowered 
her voice to a whisper,"You one of his clients?" then 
erupted into a belly laugh.



Mulder just gave her his best blank stare as the woman 
moved toward the staircase.



After picking the lock, he found the small dwelling had 
been sparsely furnished, but what the "man" had had was 
strewn in every direction. <Damn, this never gets any 
easier.  They've all probably been erased by now.>



Pushing down thoughts of his mother's situation, he quickly 
exited the building.



****

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****



FBI Building

Basement Office
May 20th 
12:30pm



Without taking her eyes from the computer screen Scully's 
fingers punched out the cell phone number by rote.  She 
double clicked, scrolled and brought the receiver to her ear, 
expecting to hear the "no service" message for the 
twentieth time.  To her surprise it rang once and then his 
voice.

"Mulder."



"It's me.  Where are you?"



"Driving out of New York.... I'm heading back to Rhode 
Island."



"You ditched me again."



A long pause.  "I know... I did... but it wouldn't have 
mattered anyway."



"You didn't find the other Jeremiah Smith, did you."



"They're eliminating them,  Scully.  I bet they were all gone 
by the time we were admitted to the hospital last night."  
He was giving up.  She could here it in his voice and it 
frightened her.  He never gave up.



"I'm not so sure about that... I've been making some phone 
calls... doing some research."



"What?"



"When you get to your Mother, stay put... I'm coming up 
there."



Scully didn't let him respond before she had hung up  and 
her fingers were dialing again.



****



The two sleeping forms were bathed in the muted 
flourescent light of the hospital room.  Standing in the 
doorway, Scully wondered if Mrs. Mulder had fallen asleep 
at her son's beside when he was sick as a boy. <It's strange 
how the roles change with time.>



She softly sqeezed his shoulder, but he still awoke with a 
start.  Groggily he rose and ushered her out side his 
Mother's room.  Before Scully could speak, Mulder 
apologized, "I'm sorry I ditched you... there really isn't any 
excuse."



"It's a hard habit to break, eh, Mulder?" She caught his 
downcast eyes with hers.  "I was worried about you."



He nodded, repentantly.



"How is she doing?"



He shrugged, shook his head. "She's still in a coma... I don't 
think she looks too good."



He changed the subject.  "You said you found something 
out?"



iI think there might one of these guys left... I've been 
making some phone calls --  all the 'Smiths' from Florida, 
Chicago, to Seattle have either been mysteriously arrested 
or 'dissappeared.'  All but one."



He cocked his head to ask her to continue.



"How do you feel about a trip to California?  I got *us* 
tickets for tonight." 



"Scully, you don't have to do this with me -- this is about 
my mother... I can't  ask--"  

She cut him off with a look. 

"Don't do this again, --"



The sound of a beeping alarm from the machines in her 
room suddenly ended the argument.



Mulder slipped back in the room, Scully and nurses 
following.  "Mom... I'm here," he tried to reach out and 
touch his mother, but he was pushed out of the way as the 
staff set about stabilizing her condition.




****

End part two.

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Talitha Cumi:  Second Chances

Part 3 of 8
by

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Disclaimer in part one.





Thunk.



With a final tug, the soft sided bag fell from the top shelf to 
land at Scully's feet.  Wondering how many times she'd 
packed or unpacked in the past months, she started the 
ritual of gathering her things for the flight to California.  


Most of the small bags were already packed- cosmetics, 
bath supplies, and the like in travel sizes and ready to go.  
The ritual was perfected by now so she was able to let her 
mind wander as she filled the suitcase.



Mrs.  Mulder was hanging on- as was her partner- at least 
for the time being.  The fact that she had stabilized after he 
last bout of low blood pressure was a good sign.  She could 
still recover, at least partially, miracle man or no, though 
Dana knew that Mulder would blame himself for anything 
less than a full recovery if he failed to return with another 
Smith to heal her.



But there wasn't really any proof that this man *was* what 
Mulder claimed him to be.  There was no evidence that he 
was a healer, a miracle worker, and most likely he was just 
another man.  She would allow that *perhaps* he was 
another clone- another Gregor- but she saw no reason to 
place Mulder's level of belief in the man's powers.



A ringing broke her out of her reverie and she dropped a 
small umbrella into the bag at the same moment she picked 
up the phone.



"Scully, I don't think you should go."



"Excuse me?"



"You heard me.  I don't think you should go.  This isn't 
something that you need to get involved in and besides I 
could probably use you more here in DC."



"Mulder, I thought we'd already been over this... "



The silence on the line was filled with her partner's 
distracted tension.



"Look Scully.   I don't want you to go with me.  Is that clear 
enough?  I don't want to have to worry about you- where 
you are, if you're ok.  I just want to take care of this and I 
can do it better without you.  I don't need you on this one."



The words became more bitter as he spoke, finishing in a 
raw, biting tone that physically hurt her.  Confusion and 
fear filled her and she blindly  felt for the bed beneath her 
as she sat.



"And don't follow me.  Do you understand?  I'll call you if I 
need you but otherwise I don't want to see you or hear from 
you.  In fact, why don't you go up and stay at the hospital 
with my mom."  It wasn't a suggestion, it was a demand.



It took all her strength to steady her voice,  "Are you sure?"



The silence was his response.  She could imagine the look 
on his face- staring past her, not even acknowledging her 
presence.



There was a click and he was gone.



****



Any passerby familliar with the FBI would have recognized 
the man at the payphone as Fox Mulder as he hung up the 
telephone, turned, and moved down the corridor to the exit 
sign.  In those few steps, however, that familliar face 
changed as he  made himself unrecognizable before 
slidding into the smoke filled car.

"It's taken care of.  She won't be available."



The cigarette bobbed in the darkness as its owner 
acknowledged this fact.



"Good.  I didn't want to have to hurt her again.  And Mulder 
will be easier to control if he's  on his own."

****



"Dammit Scully," Mulder muttered to himself as he 
listened once again to the voice mail message answering 
her cellular number.  She was either out of range or her 
phone was off, but either way she was late.  Their flight 
was boarding- final call blared past him as he glanced 
worriedly up and down the walkway.  She could be in 
trouble, he knew, and he faced a moment of horrible 
indecision.  Should he wait?  Should he go after her?  She 
wasn't at home, wasn't at the office... normally these 
circumstances would send him searching for her,  but now 
he knew that his mother was depending on him.  

He hadn't 
been able to save his sister.



He had to do all he could for his mother.



Scrawling a quick message to leave with a ticket agent and 
vowing to continue trying her cellular from the airphone, 
he made his decision and strode down the boarding gate.

****



Dana paced past the nurses' station for what felt like the 
hundredth time in the past hours.  She had done as she'd 
been asked, was watching over Mrs.  Mulder as carefully 
she would her own mother- double- checking medications, 
making sure that no one had access to the room that 
shouldn't be there.  She felt powerless but knew that 
Mulder was doing what he thought best and it was, after 
all, his mother.  She'd seen him this focused only once 
before, but one didn't spend much time in the Hoover 
building without hearing the stories about "Spooky" when 
he got wound up in a case.  It worried her to imagine how 
much more intense his response would be now that the 
stakes were so high.



She was afraid for him.

With a sigh, she turned back to  Mrs. Mulder and another 
night of waiting for her partner's call.

****

End part three




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Part 4 of 8


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San Jose, California

May 21

7am PST



Driving north on Highway 280 from the San Jose Airport, 
Mulder hit the speed dial once again on his cell phone. 

< 
Why isn't she picking up>



"Maybe she's on a plane," he thought aloud as he pulled 
into the fast lane heading toward Cupertino, a large suburb 
of San Jose.  Heading toward, he hoped, someone who 
could keep his mother alive.



After pulling over once in order to consult his map, he 
found the address he was looking for -- 42 Portside Lane.  
He sat in the car for a moment thinking of his next move, 
watching people leave their homes on their daily rush to 
work.  The residence was a modest townhome which lay on 
a street dotted with fairly new homes.  This place did not 
stand out amongst the rest, just as the man who lived within 
did not stand out amongst other human beings -- he wasn't 
supposed to.   

He really wished that Scully was there with 
him. 

He knew she worried about him when he went off on his 
own, that's why he acquiesced to her insistence that she go 
along.  It didn't make any sense that she didn't make the 
plane.  

<Maybe I should have stayed and checked on her.>



But unfortunately, he knew that he couldn't have done it... 
He had lost control again, driven by and overarching need 
to make right what he hadn't done before.  Just as it had 
been with Samantha.



< One last chance >



He dialed her voice mail at the office and left another 
message. Hopefully she'd pick it up from Rhode Island.  Or 
when she landed here in California.



Up the street, shrouded by a large Maple tree, a gray sedan 
sat parked as it had all night -- the two men within silently 
watched Mulder approach the dwelling.  The man in the 
passenger seat punched the speed dial and waited for his 
superior on the other end to pick up.



At the answer, he spoke:  "Mulder has arrived.  Should we 
stay or should we go in and have a 'conversation' with 
him?"



****



Mulder was not surprised to find that no one answered the 
door and proceeded to pick the lock.  Unlike the apartment 
in New York however, he found that this man's residence 
had not been ransacked.  Wandering about, he found that 
there were no personal momentos, no pictures, no letters.  
The acoutrements of the living room and dining area had 
that transitory look of rented furniture, beige and 
unoffending.  The upstairs was more of the same and there 
was no sign of Jeremiah Smith.  

Peering out the bedroom 
window down to the miniscule backyard he pondered the 
apparent hopelessness of his situation. <Where to now?>



He turned and began to head downstairs.  On reaching the 
final step he was struck by a blow in the stomach and then 
hit over the head.  Aware of the rustle of feet and large 
hands on him, he realized he couldn't stop the gray haze 
that was overcoming him and taking him out of 
consciousness.



****


Providence General Hospital

May 21

10:17 am  EST



Looking at her watch, Dana Scully realized that she hadn't 
left the ICU of the hosital in over 16 hours.  She hadn't 
been outside and the lack of exposure to sunlight was 
starting to get to her.  <Still no word from Mulder.>



She wondered if she should try calling him.  Peering out of 
Mrs. Mulder's room, she found someone on the payphone 
down the hallway.   Upon pulling her cell phone out of her 
purse, she was astonished to see it blinking steadily "No 
Service"   and it dawned on her that the phone wouldn't 
work this deep in the hospital, surrounded completely in 
walls of thick concrete. 

<What if he's called and couldn't 
reach me?>



Swiftly, she rushed out of the room and "borrowed" the 
phone from the nurses' station.  She dialed his cell phone -- 
no answer.   She  depressed the release button and dialed 
her voice mail in Washington.  When it picked up two 
beeps revealed two messages.  Both were from Mulder.



The first:  "Scully, where are you?  The flight's about to 
board.  You should have been here 45 minutes ago.  I'm 
going to have to get on now, but try to catch the early 
morning flight out.  I'll hook up with you in San Jose."



The second:  "Hey, its me.  It's a little after seven here I've 
found Smith's house. I assume you're on a plane right now.  
I've booked us into the Hilton downtown. Meet you there 
later this morning."

"Oh my God....  Why didn't I see it?" Scully went pale.  
Images of Mulder attacking her in a Germantown motel 
over a year ago flashed through her mind. Images of a man 
who looked like her partner, but then mysteriously changed 
before her eyes.



"Agent Scully?."  the nurse at the desk inquired.  "Are you 
alright?" 



"I'm fine.  Look, I need to leave and take care of 
something."  She scrawled her cell number on a brochure.  
"Please call me if there are any changes in Mrs. Mulder.... 
And remember, *no one* is to see her."  With that she was 
off.



****



Mulder awoke to find that he couldn't see. Well, maybe it 
was more correct to say that it was so dark that he couldn't 
see.  Despite the throbbing in his head and the ache of what 
were surely bruised if not broken ribs, he could tell that he 
was in the trunk of a car.  A car that was moving at a high 
speed.  The tires hummed a fast tune on grooved pavement.  
A highway?  Maybe.  His mouth had been taped with some 
sort of heavy tape.  He was uncomfortably laying on his 
side and his arms and legs were tied.  His left arm had 
already started to fall asleep. 

After a short while the hum of the tires slowed and he 
could tell they had left the highway and entered city streets.  
Soon came the sound of railroad tracks and the uncertain 
sound of tires stopping on gravel.



The lid popped open and his abductors unceremoniously 
pulled him out and dragged him away from the car.  They 
were in a railroad yard and were heading toward a bunch of 
rusted boxcars on what looked like some sort of repair 
track. 



<Oh great, another boxcar.>  Mulder thought ruefully of 
the irony.

Strangely, they just threw him up into the boxcar  
and climbed in with him... out in the middle of nowhere it 
seemed.  One of the men- the taller one- kicked him in the 
legs and then in the back near the kidneys. 

He winced violently and a guttural cry escaped from 
beneath the tape which bound his lips.  

They roughly 
flipped him over and through the pain, he had the sensation 
of his shirt sleeve being pulled up and the minute sting of 
an injection in his already sore left arm.  Something that 
tingled slightly was making its way through his veins.



He looked up at the two men, the sunlight backlighting 
them, making it difficult to see their faces.  The shorter one 
spoke, "Agent Mulder, we know what you want.  It's time 
to go home, you are *not* going to find it."



And then they were away, sliding the side door shut, but 
not locking it.   It didn't make any sense, he thought.  Why 
didn't they just kill me?  Or were they just trying to delay 
him? Why did they let me see who they were?  He knew 
the answer to that one.... these sorts of people had no paper 
trail. They'd never be found.  The futility of it all filled him 
and he let himself pass out to avoid the aching in his body 
that had spread from his soul. 



****


San Jose

3pm PST




Scully sat in her rental car at the airport reviewing her map.  
She had just tried Mulder's cell phone to no avail and called 
the San Jose Hilton to leave a message but found that he 
had never checked in.  <He's in trouble.  I can feel it.>  She 
stared at the cheap renditon of Santa Clara County that 
accompanied her rental agreement and felt utterly hopeless.  


<This is such a goose chase.> 

 She sighed, throwing the 
map to the passenger seat, "I guess I have to follow 
Mulder's trail," and set her sights on the address copied 
from Social Security records.  As she threw the car into 
reverse her cell phone chirped.



"Scully."



"Agent Scully?"

"Yes?"  she answered, trying to place the voice that 
sounded so ominious and eerily familiar.



"I believe you are looking for your partner.  Boxcar. Santa 
Clara CalTrain station."



The line clicked off. 

"Wait."



Scully realized who the voice belonged to -- X -- the man 
who always new so much more than he was willing to tell.



****

End part four



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Talitha Cumi:  Second Chances

part 5 of 8

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Disclaimer in part one.

For the crowd gathered in the Cafe -- don't you people ever go home? <g>


****

The blinding sunlight added to the intense headache pounding behind her
eyes as Dana pulled into the parking lot behind the station. Lack of sleep
was mixing with guilt to produce a copper-penny tasting fear that
congealed on her tongue like paste.  She attempted to reason herself out
of the panic which had begun to pulse through her brain with the same
rhythm as the throbbing.  The voice hadn't specified which boxcar, or that
she should hurry, which she concluded to mean that Mulder was stationery-
hurt but not badly so, or at least trapped in the car.  A wire fence
surrounded the train yard, intended to prevent purposes such as hers.  A
quick survey showed no holes or breaks in the fencing, so up and over the
eight feet of wire was her only choice.

****

The tall black man observed from a distance as she scaled the wire barrier
and dropped to the gravel below.  Assured that she was well on her way to
discovering her errant partner, he turned to go.

He never saw the blade that sliced through his jugular.

Or the face of the dark-headed man who held it.

****

"Mulder, Mulder it's me. Can you hear me?  We have to get you out of here.
 Come on, wake up."

The voice plowed through the black fog filling his head, pulling him back
from the clutches of darkness.

"Scull....," his tongue was thick and unresponsive, hampered further by
thick tape, the light too bright for him to find her face.  He knew she
was there, didn't need to see her.  He could feel her and that was enough.

She slipped an arm beneath him, pulled him to his feet and began to lead
the way out of the abandoned car.  After only a few steps he faltered,
unsure that he could continue.

"We have to get out of here now," the urgency in her voice communicated
volumes to him.  She was frightened for both of them but had no time to
explain details.

The image of Mulder's source would join the growing number of faces that
danced through her nightmares.  She had found him saturated in his own
blood, eyes wide with surprise, lying next to the boxcar in which they now
stood.  He hadn't been dead long, mere moments it seemed to her, which
meant that the killer was nearby.  Mulder's wounds were serious, but not
serious enough to warrant risking it- they had to clear out.

Alex Krycek watched from a distance as the pair stumbled into the
sunlight.  Mulder would be dependent upon him from now on. 

He had no other choice.

He would be Mulder's new source.

****

7:45pm

He wasn't coming around like he should have.

Dana Scully paced nervously across the threadbare carpet of the Motel 6. 
Mulder had been unconcious for too long and she was beginning to wonder if
she had been wrong to forego a hospital visit.

She knew they couldn't risk it.

She had dressed his wounds just as she had a hundred times before, but
this time it felt different.  He clutched at her hand, fought her, finally
forcing her to medicate him into submission.

But now he wasn't coming out of the sedative.

Her cellular trilled, startling her a bit more than she expected-or was
comfortable with.

"Agent Scully, I believe that I have some information you're looking for."

The voice in her ear shocked her and she found herself choking back the
bile that was rising in her throat.

Krycek.

"Agent Scully?  Are you there?  Or maybe you're just not interested?  I'm
sure I could find someone else who would be- or at least someone
interested in the location of your little hide-a-way.  Not a very romantic
spot for an afternoon liasion, but then again, I never thought Mulder had
very good taste."

For the first time in her life she was completely lost- no words sprang to
her tongue to defend or destroy.  Scully realized that despair was
dangerously close, that she had no idea what she should do.

To deal with him would lower her to his level.  To not deal with him could
cost Mulder's mother her life, at least in his mind.

"Call back in an hour, Krycek.  I need to think about this."

"Don't think too long Scully.  Mrs.  Mulder doesn't have that long.  For
that matter, neither does Mulder."

"What do you-"

The phone clicked and he was gone.

Frantic was the only word to describe her now.  She had seen no evidence
of punctures during her minstrations, but there was no way to tell if he'd
been drugged in some other manner.  Inhalants, something he'd been forced
to swallow- she should have seen it sooner.  Or possibly a more serious
head injury- there hadn't been an obvious wound, but a blow or some other
trauma-

She had to get him to a hospital.

And then she had to decide.  Could she sell her soul for Mulder?  And if
she did, would she ever be able to reclaim it again?


*******

Another hospital, another emergency room.  

<It always ends up this way.>

Dana Scully paced the hallway.  She'd taken her unresponsive partner into
the nearest hospital she could find and they gave him adrenaline to bring
him out of the effects of the sedative and whatever else was holding him
unconcious.   He had regained conciousness briefly, but then fallen to a
drowsy sleep as they began the process of moving him to a room.  

He'd only opened his eyes long enough to assure himself that Scully was
there.  She came to his side and grasped his hand and saw the look of
relief cross his face when he saw her.  She was more surprised though, at
his mumbled-

  "Always saving my butt, aren't you, my Scully."  

<My Scully!  What the hell is that?>

She knew the remark wasn't truly possessive in nature, and that fact
scared her to death.  Due to everything they'd seen and experienced
together, she could honestly say that Mulder was her best friend - her
*truest* friend, even.  And it wasn't that she hadn't thought of him as
anything more than a partner or friend, but, she'd always assumed that all
his passion was focused entirely on his quest.  Frankly, because of all
that she'd experienced with him, especially the death of her sister, she
felt torn between the possibility that lurked between them and the fear of
what becoming closer to Mulder could do to her life.

Scully had more immediate things to worry about right now.   She peered
out the window of the lounge- she didn't want him to overhear the phone
call when it came.    Her cell phone trilled in her hand.  She stared at
it as it rang once more and whispered softly,  "Forgive me, Melissa."  She
closed her eyes,  clicked the talk button and spoke in a low voice.  

"Scully."

"Agent Scully.  Have you thought about my offer."

"Krycek, I'm listening."

He spoke quickly, giving her directions to an out of the way diner at
which they could rendezvous. 

She clicked off and crumbled onto the waiting couch,  her forhead resting
in her hands.  She suddenly couldn't stop shaking.

******
End part five

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Part 6 of 8

Disclaimer in part one
******************

She knew she couldn't leave on her "errand" without seeing  Mulder.  He
was asleep, resting comfortably according to his minders.  Scully stood
staring at him for a while thinking of how peaceful he looked. 
Impulsively she drew her hand accross his forehead, attempting to make the
hair lay down.  She rested her hand on his head, feeling for a fever. 
Reflexively, she snatched her hand back when he stirred. Caught in the act
of an intimate gesture, all she could do was offer a sheepish smile.  For
what seemed like an eternity, he stared into her eyes -- she couldn't look
away -- his stare was like a magnet.

"Hi."  He broke the silence,  disconcerted by her tense look.

"Hi  yourself."

"Scully.... Thank you."

"Thank you?"

"You're always there to pick me up--"

"--Mulder, we can talk about the details later," Scully interupted him,
sensing an emotional confession that she was ill- prepared to handle. 
"I've got a lead I need to check up on, I have to shove off here pretty
soon."

"What is it?"  

"It's too long to go into -- and I'm not sure it's going anywhere yet.   I
need you to trust me on this one for now."  She smiled trying to reassure
him.

<What is she hiding from me?  This is the type of thing I've done to her.>

"You going to be okay here by yourself for an hour or so?"

"Uh huh. Sure."  He couldn't hide the concern he felt from his face no
matter what he said.

"Okay, then..."  She turned to leave and then felt his hand grab her
elbow.

"Scully... thanks again...."  He paused to make sure she was really
listening.  "After all these years I've realized that without you I'd be
dead -- I couldn't have made it without you."

Again she couldn't break the seriousness of his stare.  "Oh, I don't know
about that."  She tried to grin nonchalantly, to no avail.  "Well, I'll be
back soon."  

With that he released her arm and she fled the room.

******

10:13pm

The diner was right where he said it would be.  The Cafe August was a
small establishment tucked in between a cleaners and a video store in one
of the many sterile strip malls that dotted this valley.  

Scully parked on the far end of the parking lot and studied the location. 
The electric sign of the resturant was defective -- only part of it was
fully lit -- the word CAFE, and the last half of the other word - UST. 

"How odd," she thought, "something about that reminds me of home."

Looking down to the door, she caught sight of another familiar form. 

"Krycek. That bastard."  She shocked herself saying this audibly. 

<Time to suck it up, Dana>

With that she got out of the vehicle, locked the car, and quickly crossed
the shadow- covered lot.

A bell jangled as she pushed past the glass door, her eyes never leaving
the face sitting in the rear booth.

She would recognize him forever- no matter the distance or disguise.

Steeling herself against the rage and disgust building in her abdomen, she
slipped in to face him.

"Good to see you Dana."  Krycek sipped a cup of something steaming,
looking as if this were nothing more than a social call.

"What did you want?"

Krycek raised his eyebrows and smiled tightly.  Obviously the lady wasn't
in the mood to chat.

"Actually, I think the question is: 'What do you want that I have?' "
 
Scully found herself visualizing the gunshot that would wipe that smug
smile from his face forever.

"I have information.  Rumor is that your sources are dropping like flies
these days.  I'm stepping in for the latest."

<I couldn't have heard that right.>

"Excuse me?"

That tight smile again.

"I'm your new source.  And I know what you're looking for.  And I know
where to find it."

"Why would you want to help us?"

"I don't.  I want to help me.  And you are currently the party in need. 
So, " another sip, "you interested?"

The headache was building again behind her eyes.  This wasn't happening-
couldn't be happening.  This man was not sitting in front of her offering
to help.

"What's in it for you?"

"I get you and Mulder on my side- at least partially.  I provide the
'merchandise', he owes me one.  Which means you owe me one, too.  I like
knowing that people owe me favors."

So this was it.  Her last chance to back out.  There was no one to confer
with, it was all in her lap.

<Mary, Mother of God, forgive me.>

"Fine.  When do I get the information?"

****

The road was a blur.  Between the hot tears streaming from her eyes and
the pounding headache throbbing in her forehead, she could barely make out
the yellow line that divided her from oncoming traffic.

How could she ever forgive herself?  

How would Mulder respond?

She felt as though she had prostituted herself, as though she were now
forever indebted to the man who had destroyed so much of her past and her
future.  She felt dirty.  She felt as though her last shreds of virtue and
purity had finally been torn away.

She had made a deal with the devil himself.

****
End part six

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Part 7 of 8

Disclaimer in part one.

******************
The next morning -- May 22
Kaiser Permanente Hospital, Santa Clara

He wondered how she ever got used to sleeping in those chairs.

There had been countless mornings just like this when he woke to see her
sleeping as she kept vigil at his bedside.  He wondered how she had
slipped past the nurses.  

<Slipped?  She probably just charged in and announced that she was
staying.>

Her unconcious state gave him the luxury of studying her openly.  Her
hands were clenched tightly in her lap, her head lying to one side and
lips parted moistly in sleep.

He found himself wondering what her breath would taste like.  Sweet,
warm...

Then he noticed the circles around her eyes, the swelling that belied
crying.  She was usually successful in hiding the signs, but this time he
knew.  She had cried herself to sleep.  

He wondered what kind of lead she had checked out the previous night that
had left her in the kind of desparate tears that she couldn't control.

Pulling the IV from his arm, he swung his legs over the side of the bed
and began the arduous process of dressing quietly.  He couldn't let her
continue to handle this alone, it was his mother and his problem.

"You didn't really think you wouldn't wake me up, did you?"  he heard the
smile and found his own before turning to face her.

"Figured it was worth a try."

She frowned as he began dressing in the clothes from the small closet.

"Mulder, you shouldn't be up-"

"I can't stay in bed.  Besides, I feel better."

"Liar."

He had to admit that she was right- he felt like hell.

But he could sleep later.

Right now he had to find Jeremiah Smith.  If he was still alive.

****

May 22
11:25am

Once again the agents travelled down one wide main drags of this city, car
dealerships and strip malls par for the course.  Following Stevens Creek
Boulevard for several miles they passed a large shopping mall and crossed
over Highway 880, and the three lanes merged to two, the name of the
street changing to San Carlos Street.   Mulder realized that they were
heading toward the older section of San Jose, nearing downtown.  He and
his partner saw many cities in America, but it was always like this.  He
knew the Bay Area was beautiful and wondered if someday his life would
slow down enough to allow travel for pleasure.  

<No Golden Gate Bridge or sunny beaches for Scully and me.>  He wondered
if she regreted it too.

The air in the car was thick with the quiet- the usually companionable
silence filled with secrets shouting to be told.  Dana knew that he could
tell she was keeping something to herself, but couldn't begin to imagine 
how she would begin to tell him that she had made a deal with the man
responsible for so much of their grief.

Unbeknownst to her, a heavy sigh stretched from her heart to her throat
and past her lips.

She was right.  Mulder did know that she had a secret and it was bothering
the hell out of him.  He found himself alternating between a frown of
worry at her obvious distress and a frown of frustration at her secrecy.  

"Scully, what is it?"  his tone wasn't gentle or reassuring, it was filled
with frustrations and what-the-hell-is-going-on anger.

The words she had hoped would form on her lips of their own accord failed
her.  If she told him it would all be over.  He would never forgive her,
she would never forgive herself.

But even if she remained quiet forever, one day there would be a phone
call or a knock on the door and the awful payment for her choice would be
exacted.

He would find out eventually.

"Mulder, I've..." and her frantic mind lit upon a solution.  Not a lie,
not the truth, but something else..." I've got to tell you something you
don't want to hear.  You're source- he's dead.  I found his body outside
of the same train car where I found you."

His mouth was set in a thin line.  Too many people were dying after they
came into his life.  His mother would never survive now.

"We can't give up.  I have to find Jeremiah Smith.  We have to find
another way to-"

"Mulder," she paused to swallow against the viscosity of the half-truth
lying in her throat, "I've been contacted by another source.  I can't tell
you who it is, but he says he has what we're looking for."

"Do you trust him?"

"No.  But we can't trust anyone else either."

****

Soon he made a right turn off the main drag, per Scully's navigation, and
ventured down a narrower residential street.  The street was lined with
old and overgrown willow trees whose branches brushed the tops of the
houses they covered.  The houses on this street were small and had been
built in the 40's when the orchards of the valley where still king and
most of the industry was fruit processing related, not silicon chips.  By
the looks of them, most of these houses hadn't seen care in that long --
mostly relegated to rental property now -- bars on the windows, peeling
paint jobs and brown patches of hard dirt where lawns had once flourished.
 

The house that beckoned Scully was in the middle of the block on the right
side.  Like its mates, it too had bars on the windows, but appeared to be
in more favorable condition.  A new porch had been added to the front of
the aged building.  The fresh look of the wood jarred with the dirty white
color of the original paint.

Dana's pulse pounded in her throat at the thought of what she was about to
consumate.  In just a few moments more she would have crossed that line
separating her from the monsters she had sworn to fight.

She would become one of Them- at least part of her would.

Mulder waited in the car for her signal as she stalked around to the back
of the house.  He was still weak and wouldn't be much help in a fight, but
he had insisted.  

The hair on the back of her neck raised slightly as she spun to train her
gun on Krycek.

"Very good, Scully," she raised the barrel of her gun and frowned.

"Where is he?"

Alex Krycek twitched his dark head.

"In there.  He's waiting for you.  He knows that youre coming."

He turned to go, practically daring her to shoot him.  He knew she
wouldn't.

"Krycek."

He stopped, not turning.

"This is between you and I.  Leave Mulder out of it.  I owe you.  He
doesn't."

His weight shifted and his profile became visible, half of that tight
smile twisting her stomach with its meaning.

"Fine.  I like it better that way anyway.  See you around, Scully."

****

Mulder sat expectantly, gripping and ungripping the steering wheel.  He
felt he should have gone with her.  He didn't like the uneasy feeling in
his gut telling him that she was in danger and he didn't like the idea of
her facing it alone.  Intellectually, he understood Scully's need to keep
the identity of her source private, but emotionally, he felt alienated. 
Or ditched.  

< Ditched.  That's what I always do to her.  I guess the shoe's on the
other foot now.>  

He trained his eye on the decrepit wooden gate that led to the back of the
house.  He hadn't seen any movement since it closed wobbily behind Scully.
 He glanced at the car clock.  11:45.

Looking back to the house he saw the gate swing open and a dark headed man
slip out and head down the sidewalk in the opposite direction.  A very
familiar dark headed man.  

"What the he--" .  Adrenaline and anger instantaneously pumped through his
veins as he lurched out of the car and ran to overtake him, pushing his
already overtaxed body to its limits.  

Alex Krycek had heard the pounding of feet behind him before it was too
late. He reached into his jacket and spun around to face his assailent
with his pistol.  He was not surprised to see Mulder stop short only a few
feet from him.  

"How nice to see you again,"  he said with a smile, "I wouldn't come any
farther if I were you."

"Krycek.  I'm surprised to see you ... I thought you'd be dead by now...
or at least out of secrets to sell."  He could barely contain his anger as
the younger man stared back at him with an insidious smile. "Where's
Scully? I swear if you did anything to harm her...."

"You'll kill me?" baited Krycek.  "It seems to me that you are in no
position to make threats."  He looked to his weapon for emphasis.  

"Is that the gun you used to kill my father?"  Mulder took a step toward
him.  "You won't kill me -- if you are the source then you  must need
something from us." 

Kychek knew he was right, but continued to bluff.  "Not you.  Her."  He
cocked his head toward the house... She owes me now... I still don't know
what favor she will have to do for me..."  he grinned,  "but I'm sure I'll
think of something.  She's looking good, Mulder -- better than the last
time I saw her -- you are a lucky man."

"You bastard."  He lost control and moved towards him.  

Krycek instinctively moved backward and in doing so caught his heel on
part of the sidewalk which had been cracked and forced upward by an
overgrown tree nearby.  He lost his balance and his gun.  

Mulder went down on top of him and with the hand that wasn't around the
other man's throat tried to blindly reach the gun, but without success. 
He knocked Krycek's head against he hard concrete and felt the man's hand
also reach his throat and began to squeeze.  Locked in their stalemate the
two men clung together trying to squeeze the life out of each other. 
Until Krycek's fingers felt and grabbed his gun.  

He brought it up to Mulder's temple and slowly felt the pressure of his
fingers around his throat release.  

"Up.  Get up."  he ordered with a hoarse voice.   Reluctantly, Mulder did
so never taking his eyes off of him.

Krychek stood and grabbed him by the jacket and propelled him backwards to
the car adjacent.  He slammed him down on to the hood with anger and
placed the gun to his head again. "Listen up!  I'm calling the shots here.
 You damn well better be thankful -- you owe me your mother's life!"  His
voice returned to a whisper.  "Now you're going to close your eyes and
count to 100 without moving and I'm going to walk away from this.  Do
you--"

"Krycek -- Back Off!"  

Both men heard the click of a safety going off.  Kychek pounded Mulder's
head into the hood for emphasis.  "I was just leavi--"

As he looked up he heard the crack of the weapon and felt the round tear
through his body.  Suddenly, he found himself writhing on the asphalt a
few feet from the car. 

Mulder had slid off the car into the street at the sound of the shot. He
got to his knees looked across the car to see his partner slowly walking
toward Kyrchek.  There was an older gentleman following her.  

"Mulder, you okay?"  She didn't take her eyes off of the man she'd shot. 
He was beginning to get up.  Unfortunately, she thought, she hadn't killed
him.  She made a quick reminder to go in for target practice when this was
all over.  

Slowly, Krycek stood, bent over with one hand pressed into the wound in
his side as he picked up his gun.  

"Be very careful of what you do next." she warned.

The injured man called out, "I'm walking away!" and held his good arm up
in  surrender mode.  As he backed his way down the street, he yelled after
them, "Don't think you've heard the last of me  Scully."

When he had dissappeared around the corner, the three gathered together. 
Mulder spoke first, his fear and anger getting the best of him.

"Krycek!  Scully, how could you!  Do you have any idea how dangerous this
is?  Now I know why you didn't want to tell me." He pushed her hands away
as she sought to help him to his feet and simultaneously check his wounds.

"It's not like I sought him out.  He contacted me.  He knew that your
source was killed in the railyard.  For all I know he did it himself--"
her voice was rising to match the volume of his own as she struggled to
make him understand what she herself found difficult to grasp.

"But he killed my father!... your sister!"

"Don't you think I know that? That I thought of that?" she paused a
moment, closed her eyes against the shattered expression on the face of
her partner.  She needed her control now more than ever.  "Jesus, Mulder,
I had no choice.  He said time was running out for your mother, and maybe
even you.... He knew where we could find what we were looking for."  She
stared at him for a moment and let this information sink in.  "And
besides, how many times have you asked me to follow you blindly?  It's
your turn.  You have to trust me."  Her voice grew higher and louder. 
"Don't you think this was difficult for me... that this was the most
difficult thing I've ever... after Missy..."  She broke off her words and
pulled her eyes from his to retreat within herself,  afraid of what else
she might say.

Sensing it was time to difuse the situation, the gray haired gentleman
spoke.  "I think its time we moved out of the open.  There are many who
would be looking for us."

Mulder broke his stare from his partner and turned to regard the man,
nodded at the familliar face before him.

" Do you understand why we've come to find you?"

"Yes, your mother is ill and you want me to visit with her.  I can't make
any guarantees."

He nodded, then realized that his partner had already started the car.

"Let's get going"

*******
End part seven

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Talitha Cumi:  Second Chances
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Part 8 of 8

Disclaimer in part one
******************
May 22
Providence General Hospital
9:03pm EST

He wanted a cigarette badly.  But he wouldn't smoke here, now.  Not with
her in such fragile condition.  He also didn't want the hospital's
sensitive smoke detectors to alert the staff of his presence.  

He looked at the glowing dial of his watch.  It was after 9'oclock.  He'd
have to check in with his associates soon.  He'd snuck in without much
difficulty after visiting hours had ended.  The security at these small
hospitals were always so thin. 

<Just a few minutes more.>

He turned his attention to the comatose woman in the bed.  

<She'd kill me if she knew I was here.>

So many years had passed, so much history.  After 30 years, he still cared
for this woman and maybe even still loved her.  He thought back to the
early summers at Quonochontaug.  Visiting the Mulders.  Barbeque with the
Mulders. Waterskiing with the Mulders. He remembered how happy they all
seemed.  Bill Mulder and his beautiful young wife and two healthy, strong
children.  Oh, how he had envied him.   He had wanted what they had, and
those summer gatherings brought him close to it.  He remembered the brief
instances when Bill took Fox and Samantha out on the boat for a few hours
and she had stayed behind at the house with him.  He had come close... He
remembered telling himself that maybe someday she could be his.  

<Maybe if Bill hadn't had his attack of conscience.>

Once Bill had renounced the project and made his choice,  Samatha was lost
to the family and she was lost to him.  With Samatha's dissappearance, she
divorced herself from Bill... and all associations he had.  

The man leaned back in his chair and wondered briefly if there would have
been any other way back then.  Any other way to control Bill. Any way he
could have suggested his superiors take action.  

Suddenly aware of the passage of time he pushed those thoughts down and
leaned forward in his chair to consider the woman before him.  Despite the
equipment that seemed to grow out of her, he could still see remnants of
the beauty she had back then.  <And even today>  He knew that he didn't
have to meet her that day... he could have sent someone, but he wanted to
see her so badly, and there at that place where they had been on the brink
of happiness together.  He hoped that he hadn't been responsible for her
present condition.  But he knew that he was; he'd been indirectly
responsible for so many of the bad things in her life.  

He rose and cupped her limp hand in his,  "I'll see you later," he
whispered.  And then he was gone. 

*****

Back in his car, before departing the hospital parking lot, he lit a
cigarette and looked up at her window, seeing the shadows of nurses and
attendants moving around it.  He inhaled, and feeling a warm calm spread
over him, picked up a phone to dial his associates in New York.  

"Hello."  The clipped British voice answered knowing exactly to whom he
was speaking.  "You are late - it is well after nine."

Ignoring the rebuke, he took another drag of his cigarette and spoke in an
even voice.  "I had some business to attend to."

"I hope it was the business of those who are being sought after by Agents
Mulder and Scully."

"Yes,"  he lied. "That is under control."

"May I tell our friends that all the Smiths are eliminated?"

"Yes, the last should be taken care of right now."

"So you are telling me that your objective has not yet been fully
accomplished.  We are aware that Mulder and Scully have made it to the Bay
Area, where the last remaining of his strain exists."

"It doesn't matter where Mulder and his partner are.  Smith is going to be
dealt with.  I am waiting for a report from my men."

"For your sake, I hope your men do not fail."

"They won't fail.  They never do.  They do *exactly* as I tell them."

"Is that all you have to report."

"One more thing."

"Yes?"

"I found our leak.  He is dead."

"Good.  We expect to hear from you when the situation is finally
contained."

With that the line clicked off.   He dialed another number. 

Upon the voice's answering, he spoke.

"What is the status of our friends Mulder and Scully."

"Sir, they have made contact with Smith."

Anger at his associate rose in the man.  He knew he'd led them there. 
He'd had his suspicions for a brief while now, ever since the cable video
debacle, but to have them confirmed was still a blow.  Their long
association, however, did not make him hesitate in having him put down.  

Even though he knew the answer to the question, he still queried, "Who led
them to him?

Hearing the answer, he realized he'd been wrong.  An old player was back
in the picture.  Krycek.  He'd have to take care of that problem at a
later date.

"Sir, when do  you want us to take Smith out. We'll need some lead time to
contact the appropriate 'operative.'  It could get messy now that the
other two are involved.  We know that they went back to their hotel with
Smith."

He thought for a moment about his choices, and choices he should have made
many years ago.  If it weren't for her, he wouldn't think twice about
Mulder.  That was the real reason he had done what he could to protect him
this long.  Though he'd grown to respect the young man's courage at times,
he knew he was a fool, just like his father -- believing that "the truth
would set them free."  Both he and Bill were congenitally unable to see
the big picture.  

"Listen, they will most likely try to fly into DC, New York or Rhode
Island.  They will take a commerical flight thinking that they are safe in
public.  Your job is to make sure that they arrive at their destination
safely."

"Sir?" a confused voice responded.

"Call me when they are off. That is all."  He clicked off.

He thought back to his conversation with his British associate.  <Yes, my
men do *exactly* what tell them. After all, I pay them well enough>  He
had never been naive enough to think that his fellow associates trusted
him enough to do their dirty work.  They didn't trust anyone; they spied
on each other as much as they would someone who wanted to upset their
plans.  One in his line of work could only hope that money could buy some
temporary loyalty.

He thought of Mulder once more.  He respected the young man but, he hated
to admit it to himself, he resented him.  Resented him because he was
Bill's son.   Nevertheless, this time they would be playing on the same
side -- he smiled through a cloud of smoke -- ironically, young Fox would
never know.  

****

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****

After the confrontation, it had been a tense afternoon all around.  Mulder
considered himself lucky that Scully and he had travel arrangements to
make and the rescuing and returning of his "lost" rental car.  He knew
he'd reacted badly... and after the heat of the moment he regretted and
did not mean the things he'd said to Scully.  He trusted her and her
judgement and he didn't blame her for meeting Krycek.  Most of all he was
kicking himself for intimating that she somehow didn't feel the same pain
he did regarding this man.   They'd both lost so much. Thankfully,
Jeremiah Smith was with them everywhere they went.  None of them felt it
would be safe to split up at this point.  Not when they were this close to
returning to his mother.  Like a child whose parents keep them from
arguing, Smith was a quieting influence.  

Scully looked at her watch.  Nearly 6:30. The aircraft began to pull away
from the jetway.  Soon they would be back in Rhode Island and they would
see what this man could do.  She was still wary of this man's abilities;
but, if he brought hope to Mulder maybe it was all worth it.  Maybe. 
Scully cast a  glance at her partner who inhabited the window seat.  He
had ended up next to her when they booked their flight, while Smith had
received the window seat behind them.   She still felt bruised from his
reaction, even though she understood it, and knew from the way he'd acted
all afternoon that he regreted what he'd said to her.    She wasn't ready
to officially forgive though.  She was tired and dirty and felt at loose
ends.  <At least he looks anxious. Normally he sleeps through entirely.>

Mulder's mind couldn't quiet down.  He was an exceptional flyer and
usually could fall off to a doze after they sealed up the doors.  Strange,
he thought, that he could sleep while being hurtled through the air, but
yet couldn't fall asleep in his own bedroom.  But he knew why he felt
jumpy today. He was worried about his mother and what he'd find when he
got back.  

<What if this guy isn't for real?>  

More than that, he knew he'd hurt Scully, and had been waiting for the
right moment to address the issue.  

<No time like the present.>  

The plane lifted off the runway and began to climb. When the plane made
it's turn toward the east and leveled, he leaned toward Scully's ear.

"I know it's not enough to say I'm sorry.... but I am."  He paused. 
Scully pursed her lips, she didn't feel like getting into it right now.  

He continued.  "Just the shock of seeing Krycek... I didn't know if he'd
done anything to you... and I hated the thought of you having to deal with
him."

The red haired woman next to him responded in her trademark guarded
stiffness.  "It's okay, Mulder.  It's fine." 

He straightened, sensing that he'd gotten as far as he could get for now. 
He knew it would resolve itself later, at home.  He hoped.  

The man behind them sensing the lull in their coversation, unbuckled his
seatbelt and rose.  He lean over and touched them both briefly on the
shoulders. "Ahh, still awake I see.  I'm going to the restroom, while it's
empty."  As Mulder and Scully looked at each other wondering why he was
telling them this information, their subconsciouses were vaguely aware of
the soothing, warm tingling that reverberated through their bodies with
his touch.

Mulder cocked his head back toward the man making his way down the aisle
and grinned.  "Scully, slap me if I start informing you of my routine
bathroom habits." 

She couldn't help herself, she had to smile at his wry comment.

He was glad to see the bright smile return to his partner's face.  It had
been too long. He sensed an break in the walls, both hers and his.

"Scully, you know you constantly amaze me."  She turned her head to catch
his eyes, her expression asking "Why?"

"I've dragged you almost literally to both ends of the earth, through all
sorts of dangers... and still you stick by me... I've never had anyone
who's done that for me before. I know I haven't told you enough -- I am so
thankful to have you as my partner, my friend --" 

"Mulder --"  she tried to stop him.

"What you did today..." he continued, "what you sacrificed... going to
Krycek... I don't know how to thank you."

"You don't have to -- let's just hope he can help your mother."

He regarded her carefully, "You are an amazing woman."  It was then that
he realized his tongue had gotten away from his judgement and he had to
look away from her.  Some sort of line had been crossed there.

His partner patted his hand that rested on the arm rest between them. 
"The feeling's mutual..."  she said slowly, thoughtfully.  Then with a
grin, "At least I shot the right guy this time, eh?"

Mulder couldn't help but release a short laugh. "Yeah, I did happen to
notice the irony there, now that you mention it."  

At that moment, Smith returned to his seat.  Mulder smiled over his
shoulder at him.  Scully stretched out her arms in front of her and yawned
loudly.  She began to adjust the seat, when Mulder motioned for her to
stop.  He raised up the arm rest between them and had her lean against him
as he wrapped his left arm around her to keep her comfortable.  Scully was
too tired to fight and accepted the rest happily.  

Marking her steady breathing of sleep, Mulder smiled.  <At least one of us
will get some sleep tonight.>

In the seat behind them, the man observing smiled too.


****
Providence General Hospital
May 23
5:15am EST

Waiting.  It seemed like he spent so much of his time waiting for forces
he could not control to act upon those he loved most.  Jeremiah Smith was
with his mother, had been in the room for what seemed like hours but was
surely only minutes.  Scully's hand was resting lightly on his arm,
reassuring but not intruding, leaving him to his own silence without
leaving him alone.  It was her way.  

He wondered how he had ever survived without it.

He studied the fingers which rested gently on his sleeve- the perfect
nails which seemed odd considering where her hands spent most of their
time, the smooth skin,  the strength in the tapered fingers.  They were
small hands, but they held such power.  How many times had she touched him
as a doctor and as a friend, providing so much with only the pressure of
those hands on his shoulder, his arm, his hair...

He knew that she was surreptitiously studying him, that the slightest
movement on his part would be noticed, that by only raising his eyes a few
inches he would find her face turned towards him.  He didn't regret what
he'd said to her ealier on the plane -- that he appreciated her- needed
her.  She gave him something he couldn't put a name to from which he drew
strength and ... faith?  Was that what it was?  She had faith in him and
in turn he found himself becoming worthy of that faith.

Lifting his eyes to meet hers, he found that faith once again in her face.
 She had no doubt.

And once again they needed no words. Each knew what the other was thinking
and feeling.

Together they turned to face the tall, white-haired man stepping into the
hallway from Mrs. Mulder's room.

"I did all I could,"  Scully felt Mulder tense, " but she is very sick. 
There are limits to even my abilities.  I'm sorry.  I just don't know."

She felt the strength drain from the man beside her as their healer- their
last hope- sank into a chair with his head in his hands, distraught.

It took all of the strength she had to follow her partner into the
hospital room, but she knew she had to go.  She would give her last ounce
of strength for him, if necessary.  And she believed with all of her heart
that he would need it.

The elderly woman opened her eyes as soon as the door opened- a good sign.
 She was concious for the first time, but very weak.  Dana wondered if she
knew who they were, if she understood that this could be the last time she
would see her son.

"Fox."  The word scraped past her lips as though it required the effort of
every muscle in her body to produce it.

Jeremiah Smith had restored her speech.  That in itself was  a miracle.

"Mom?"  There were tears in his voice that he couldn't contain as he
crouched next to the bed and cupped her cheek in his hand.

"Fox.  Forgive... me.... It ... wasn't.... your fault.  We.... loved....
you....I....love... you..."

Her eyes fluttered closed and the panic rose in Dana's chest as she
realized that she didn't want to be here- didn't want to watch Mulder lose
his mother.  Too much death, too much loss, how could they continue...

But the monitors continued to beep steadily.  She was simply exhausted. 
Sleeping.

"Mom?  Mom?"  The man at her side fell into the same emotional abyss that
Dana had seen.  She pulled him back with a touch.

"She's sleeping Mulder.  Let her rest for a while."

****

In the dim light of the hospital room, Scully studied the face of her 
partner sitting near the window.  In sleep the physical resemblance to his
mother was striking, she wondered if there were any other similarities. 
She didn't know Mrs.  Mulder, had only faced her once or twice, but she
ached for the fear she knew clenched Mulder's heart.  He hadn't had real
sleep in over  72 hours and had given over to sleep only moments earlier
after Dana promised to awaken him as soon as there was any change.

That change came in the form of a shift of position and a return to
conciousness on the part of the elderly woman in the bed.

"Dana."  Her voice was soft, but stronger- not as weak as before.  

Scully smiled and leaned towards the face in the pillows.

"Just a second, let me wake Mulder."  

Mrs. Mulder shook her head slightly.

"No.  Let...him sleep.  I... I want to talk to you."

Her eyebrows raised in surprise, Dana pursed her lips and glanced to the
sleeping form in the chair.

"All right.  Is there something I can do ?"  The question was meant as an
offer to solicit a nurse- or a priest- but the answer was one that she had
never expected.

"Yes.  You can.  Dana, " the older woman closed her eyes and paused, as
though the effort to simply string the words together was exhausting,
"don't know... what's happening...to me.  I'm not ...sure.... I think ...I
may be dying... I need you.... promise ... something."

"I'll try."

"I want you ... to promise... that you'll... take care of him- at least as
much as... anyone can...  I wasn't there... after... his sister... I
always thought... someday..."  Another long pause and Dana placed her hand
on the older woman's arm.

"Mrs.  Mulder, this can wait for a few hours.  Why don't you sleep?"

"No... may not have much...Dana he doesn't know how... to love.. what
to... feel... what it means...  Teach him... help him find... it..."

She was becoming more frustrated and agitated as she struggled to form the
words, and Dana knew that she needed to calm her.

"Sssshhh. Sleep, you need to rest.  He'll be fine.  I promise," she
stroked the wrinkled brow and tried to coax the clear blue eyes closed
again.

And wondered what she had just promised to do.

As did the man pretending to sleep in the vinyl chair by the window.


******

Jeremiah Smith watched the exchange between the two women from the
doorway.  Her speech had returned and that was a good sign.  He had been
truthful when he told them that there were limits to what he could do.  It
was easy to repair the ripping and tearing of human tissue due to a
gunshot wound, or lesions on the lungs... but the mysteries of the human
brain were a bit more difficult.  

As it should be. 

Just as with the mysteries of the human heart.  He knew now that his
skills were no longer needed here -- what mattered now was that the man's
mother find her will to live, deep down in her heart.  He sensed the love
of the young man for his mother as well as the strength of the emotion
between the younger two-  he hoped this would help pull her through. 
Looking at the two agents, he wondered what would become of their
friendship -- if they would wake up to their true feelings for each other.
 Unfortunately, he was aware he'd never know.  

Scully sensed the man's presence in the doorway.  She looked up at him and
smiled, despite her tiredness, her eyes shone at him.  "Thank You," she
mouthed silently.  He nodded in acceptance and turned to leave.

He was alone now.  When the last of his kind was eliminated he felt the
connection break.  He sensed that his time was over.  Unlike most
inhabitants of this planet, he did not have the same panic reaction to
being hunted.  There was nothing to be afraid of in leaving this realm of
existance. 

He was comforted by the fact that that there were others of his kind --
children now, growing everyday.  One group of them in the moutains of the
place in which he had been living, and he was sure here too in this
region, surely, all over the planet.  Hopefully, this new generation would
come to realize the things he and his "brothers" did about the project.  

Leaving the hospital, he noted that the sky was getting lighter; night was
beginning to give way to day.  He made his way to the street and began
walking down the sidewalk towards a lighted commerical area.  Soon he came
to pass a small park.  It was dark, the large trees blocking out most of
the street light.  No passing motorists saw the confrontation between a
large muscular man and the trim gray haired man.  It was over quickly.  

He didn't put up a fight.

******
The man was woken by the trilling of his cell phone which lay by his
bedside.  

"Yes?"

"Smith is eliminated."

"Good.  What about the others... Mrs. Mulder?"

The man smiled as he heard the news of her return to consciousness.

He clicked off, placing his phone down on the endtable and in the same
motion reached for his pack of cigarettes.  It was ritual for him to have
a smoke upon waking.  Something stopped him for a moment, he stared at the
pack as if trying to choose.  

<Second chances after all...>  

He shook off the doubt and pulled one out of the pack and lit it.  He took
a few drags, extinquished it nearly whole and rolled back in to bed for a
few more hours sleep.  He smiled at the wall -- the brief use of the
cigarette had served his purposes, just as Jeremiah Smith had.  

She was awake and that was all that mattered.

End

