From: Ann Richardson Date: Mon, 16 Apr 2001 10:27:35 -0700 (PDT) Subject: story Source: direct This Moment By Kathryn Lowerson Category MSR Rating PG Spoilers Per Manum Summary Scully thoughts and feelings Disclaimer Yeah Right! Archive Let me Know (Annie2307@yahoo.com) Feedback Yes Please!!!!! This is my first and could well be my last . Notes Thanks to Ann, my niece and fellow x file friend and for letting me use her computer I am a sad person I don't own one. Three Wishes I wish I was wealthy and could fly from England to America on Sundays to see the latest episodes I wish I was at Chris Carters side when he wrote the last episode so that could say please could we have it this way (and just so you don't think I'm completely sellf obsessed I wish for world peace and good will to all men.) It is late but Scully does not sleep. At this moment the two most important people in her life lie within yards of one another. One is a tiny 7 pound bundle with downy hair in a cot she can see into the next room through the open doorways, the small nightlight Illuminates her sons perfect little face. The second person lies at her side. It is Mulder. In sleep he looks like a boy, or at least he has the youthful look he had when she first met him. But eight years of the strange life they lead have left telltale signs on this face. It is and always will be a handsome one, but when he is awake the small lines etched at the sides of his eyes and across his forehead bear testimony to all the worry, fear and heartache he has had to endure. Now in the oblivion of sleep they are smoothed away. There are no nightmares tonight. She looks across again at her son and recalls the joy she felt when she was told that it was possible afterall for her to bear a child and even though it had later appeared that invitro had failed it hadn't mattered because William had been concieved naturally on a warm stormy night in Mulder's bed. There had been no embarresment or nervousness that night just awonderful inevitability, they had both known it would happen sooner or later, they belonged to one another, they were exclusive, other people sat on the perimeter of their lives and were only allowed in on rare ocasions. She gazes at Mulder's sleeping form, devouring him with his eyes at this moment, she knows of two certainties regarding this man one that he loves her with every fibre of his being and two that very soon he will leave her again. Not because he wants to but beacuse he is an honorable man there is still the good fight to be fought and he will go off and fight it so that ultimatley they may have a secure future together. Suddenly there is a small fretful whimper from the next room, before she has time to move Mulder is awake he lays his hand on her. "It's ok Scully I'll go" he says sleeply She watches him bending over the cot speaking soothing words, he picks their child up and turns back towards her. The sight burns into her memory forever it will be as clear to her when she is old as it is on this blessend night, her beautiful Mulder walking towards her carrying William in his strong arms, his lips pressed softly to the childs temple, Williams tiny hand reaches up to his fathers bottom lip Mulder takes it in his mouth sucking gentle on the tiny fingers. He climbs into bed and looks at Scully sheepishly. "I Know I'm getting him into bad habits Scully but when he's awake I just wanna hold him" She raises her hand to his face caressing his cheek unshed tears suddenly stinging behind her eyes. "I know you do Mulder it's ok" She leans in and presses her lips to his, Mulder smiles at her and then down at William laying between them he takes Scully's hand and circles his other arm around his son. After some time Scully closes her eyes embracing the silence which is only broken by William's soft murmerings and Mulders ever deepening breathing, contentment washes over her, she is happy, she loves and is loved and whatever the future holds either joy or pain she has this moment, and for now it is all she needs. The End