From: "Elle Goldman" Date: Sun, 18 Jan 2004 20:59:16 +0000 Subject: Two Out of Three Ain't Bad Source: direct Rated NC17 | 6K | Category VRA Spoilers: None Keywords: Scully/? Romance Summary: Love doesn't always work out the way you planed... Date: 18/01/04 Author: Elle Goldman, ellegoldman@hotmail.com Summary: A look at what the future might hold, love doesn't always work out as planned... Disclaimer part 1: This is inspired by Meat Loafs song of the same name, no intention of stealing here - just homage!! Disclaimer part 2: Guess what I am not Christ Carter or some big boss at any media business! So no I don't own them...if I did do you think I'd be sitting around filling time writing this stuff? I'd be at the beach!! :) Spoilers: None - but generally based on a different time line from before Mulder went bye-bye. From last ep of season 7 didn't happen. Two Out of Three Ain't Bad Dana moved slowly over him. She couldn't get enough. She wanted to feel him inside her, buried deeply into her heat; she wanted to make him take the pain away. She screamed long and hard as she came and he followed not long behind her. She slipped off him and dropped onto the other side of the bed, both of them needed a second to get their breaths back. A while later he got out of the bed and walked to the window, she watched him stare out for a few minutes wondering what he was thinking, then got up and walked over to join him. She put her arm round his waist and rested her cheek on his back. "What are you thinking?" She asked. He shrugged her off and walked away. "I'm thinking...what the fuck is the matter with you now?! You can't just keep fucking me Dana and then give me nothing in return, you need to tell me how you're feeling. You keep blowing hot and cold...can't you see how much I love you?!" He turned to face her then and he looked at her like she was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen, her heart ached. How could she even start to explain? "I don't know where to start." She said simply. "Start at the beginning baby." He walked over took her hands in his, he walked them both over to sit on the end of the bed. Tears were forming in his eyes. "Baby," he started slowly, "just tell me you love me, that's all I want to hear." Dana looked deep into his eyes, "We could talk all night but that wouldn't get us anywhere. I've told you everything about me I possibly can, all that I dare." The tears started to fall and she lifted her hand to wipe his cheek softly. "You could cry all night, but it isn't going change the way I feel. I've tried to show you how much I care about you, but I'm tired of all the words, I'm tired of shouting." "Try to make me understand what you're saying to me Dana!" He pleaded. "The truth?" "The truth." "The truth is.... I want you in my life...I think I need you with me, but there is no way I am ever going to love you." His mouth dropped slightly, "I don't understand...", he started to think over the months they had been together, she loved him, she had to, she'd told him.... 'I love the way you make me feel' 'I love being with you' 'I love that you love me so much' Oh god, she'd never actually said it! "You want me? You need me? Am I supposed to feel thankful that I have two out of three? Grateful that you grace me with your presence in my life?!" He got up off the bed and snatched away the hands that had been cradling hers. Dana winced at his use of words, "Please don't say it like that," she cried "and yes, you should be grateful! You should be grateful you have all of myself I am capable of giving...I can't lie to you, I can't tell you I'm something I'm not. Your looking for something you can never get from me..." She got up and put her hand to his face, but his slapped it away harshly. "I don't want your platitudes Dana, I want your love! How can you say you are not capable of love? You have such a big heart...I've seen it!" "I can't give you something I haven't got. There's nothing left inside of me" She whimpered and his temper started to deflate, he sat back next to her. A strange hush took over the room as they both gathered their thoughts, finally he took her hand again, "You have no idea how this feels Dana, I need you to try and explain...what's happened here." Dana looked up from her lap and smiled a sad smile and cupped his face in her hands, "You don't understand," she started, never taking her eyes from his, "I understand exactly how you feel, that's why this hurts so much. But I can't do anything to take away the pain, I am incapable of that. You are my hearts payback, you are how my heart will deal with what happened to me. I want to take it all back but I can't...just like the bullied becomes the bully I can't stop myself from hurting you." She stopped and took a deep breath, "There's only one man that I will ever love, and that was many years ago. I know that I'll ever get him out of my heart...but he never loved me back, and I think I understand that now." She watched his eyes as he registered what she was saying, she continued to talk as she got up to look out of the window, "I can still remember like it was yesterday the night that he left me, it was dark and stormy just like tonight, I begged and pleaded with him not to go, I told him I could not go on without him...that he was part of me! But he packed his bags and went to the door." She turned round and slid to the floor so she was sitting leaning against the wall under the window. "H...he keep on t...telling me...he wanted me, he needed me, but there was no way he was ever going to love me. That I wasn't to be sad because two out of three was the best I could ever hope from him, that part of him inside was dead inside - that 'two out of three ain't bad' for him but that I deserved more...and he left me!" Sobs ripped through Dana's body as she curled into a ball in the corner of her room, reliving every last second for the thousandth time. He got up and walked over and touched her, she just jumped back into the shadows as if she'd been burnt. "Dana, who is this man? I've never heard you mention anyone...do I know him?" She shook her head slowly, "I haven't seen him since that day, it's been almost three years...his name is M...Mulder, Fox Mulder... God, it's been so long since I've said that name out loud..." The End!