From: Gillian Scully <starbuckmsr@yahoo.ca>
Date: Sat, 9 Feb 2002 16:45:30 -0500 (EST)
Subject: Fanfiction 
Source: direct

Title: Unhappiness 

Author: Starbuckmsr or Julie Osborne 

Feedback: Feedback is most welcomed @ starbuckmsr@yahoo.ca

Rating: PG but a little bad language

Date: February 7, 2002

Spoilers: None

Keywords: MSR

Summary: William is 12 and Scully is dating again after waiting almost
4 years for Mulder to come back, then she gets a somewhat of a bad
surprise.

Disclaimer: They all belong to CC, 1013 and Fox, Dustin was my
cousin's old b/f so I just used it. 

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Unhappiness

I saw my son pecking in the door when I looked he would hide, then he
would peck and I would looking, it went on for about 10 minutes until
I tolled him to come in.

"William what are you doing pecking in and out of my door?"

"You look pretty mommy. Are you going on a date with Dustin?"

"Yes I am, and he should be here any minute, so why don't you go and
look for him coming and when he gets here invite him in."

"Ok."

My son is 12 years old and doesn't have a father; I can't even
remember what he looks like anymore his father. I worked with him and
that's all I remember. We worked together for 8 years and it was the
best time of my life I was in love with him and when he left I never
had a chance to say goodbye. I missed him for a couple of years but
then I moved on and I know have a life with my son and boyfriend
Dustin, through he doesn't live with us.

Dustin loves Will and Will loves Dustin he's the only real male figure
in his life. 

"Mom Dustin's here you want me to invite him in?"

"Yes that would be nice of you. Tell him I'll be there in 5 minutes.
Thank you."

"Yup."

I watch my son walk to the door open it and invite him in, and sit on
the sofa with him. Dustin asks how Will's day was and how was school.
Will sits there telling Dustin everything. I walk out of my room
looking at then talking and I know Dustin would be the best father for
William only thing that has to happen now is Dustin ask me to marry
him and we would be a family.

"Oh Dana I didn't see you standing there are you ready to go?"

"Yes I am. Um Will you know grandma's number and you know my cell
phone, and if you can't get a hold of grandma or me you know Uncle
Walter phone number and you know he's always home, it you need
something call the Gunmen they'll get it for yea no problem. You be
good, you can stay up till I get home and that's it. I love you and
goodnight."

"Night mom, night Dustin."

"Night buddy."

I left leaving my baby home not for the first time and surely not for
the last but something just doesn't feel right about tonight.

Driving to the restaurant I was quit I think just a little to quit for
Dustin.

"Dana is something wrong you okay?"

"No I'm fine every things good."

"Ok were almost there. My friend tolled my about this place he said
they had the best Pasta in the city."

"I love Pasta."

"Good."

We got there it was packed but Dustin reserved a table for us a couple
of days ago, so we were sure we had a table.

We sat down ordered drinks. We looked at menus, and when the waitress
came back we order our meal. Music started and Dustin asked me to
dance with him. I accepted. 

We ever in the middle of the dance when I saw someone I recognized but
couldn't put a name to it. I wanted to go over and say hi but it would
be ever rude of me to. 

We sat down and we waited for out meal. It came about 10 minutes
later; we ate him silent, then right out of the blue I yelled the name
Mulder.

Everyone turned around from where they were and looked at me. I walked
over to the person I recognized. It was Mulder.

I walked up to him and slapped him so hard I could hear it. He looked
at me and stared like he know what I was thinking.

"You some of a bitch."

"Do I know you?"

I ran back to my table and grab my wallet; I got back to his table and
pulled out a picture of William.

"Your son you bastard."

"Scully?"

"Yes you fucking asshole."

"What... I mean, oh my God."

"How could you do that to him. He was ours they almost took him but
they didn't and you left. Left me and our baby. Do you even know how
old he is? Uh, come on Mulder? He's 12 years old. He hasn't had a dad
all his life."

"I'm sorry."

"Sorry. Sorry wont cut it for 12 years of raising our son by my self.
You think I wanted to give up my life so you could run off with some
little whore?"

"Hey fuck..."

"Stay the fuck out of this bitch, or you'll be sorry."

"Scully please can we take this out side?"

"Fuck you, right here right now. I trusted you Mulder. I gave you a
son when I was tolled I would never have children. His is my life.
Would you like to know what he asked me once? He asked why he didn't
have a daddy and was it because of him you left us? You know how much
that hurt me to tell my son that his daddy isn't here because it
wasn't safe. I knew that right reason but I wasn't brave enough to
tell him. 

I needed you there Mulder, I was in love with you."

"Scully please."

"Hey I have to ask you something?"

"Who the hell our you?"

"I'm her boyfriend. Anyway, I have a question. How the hell could you
ever call yourself a man? I mean you probably have all the right parts
and everything, but to leave you son at that ago, he was what 2 months
2 and a half."

"I didn't have a chose, if I didn't leave William would be died by
know, I wanted you to have your son and to live on happily ever
after."

"Mulder how could I live happily ever after if I didn't even have all
my family?"

"I don't know."

"Here call me tomorrow we have to talk. Can we go Dustin please I just
want to be with Will?"

"Sure lets go."

I didn't say goodbye to him I didn't feel the need to.

We got home around 7:30 Will was still up, like I tolled him he could.

"Mom! Umm umm I umm didn't expect you to me home this early I was
going to have the mess clean." "It's ok baby. Umm Dustin I'll call you
tomorrow I have to talk to Will about something."

"I understand. See yea Will."
"Bye Dustin. Mom whatever grandma said I didn't do it. The Gunmen can
over to check up on me and they stayed for a little bit but they just
left about ten minutes before you got home."

"Will grandma didn't call."

"Then what? Are you and Dustin getting married?"

"Umm no. When Dustin and I were out tonight I ran into someone I
worked with in the FBI."

"Was Uncle John, Aunt Monica?"

"No. I don't know how to tell you this but."

I posed for a moment before I tolled Will about his father.

"I bumped into your, I bumped into your father."

He stared at me like someone had just died right in front of him.

"Is he coming over tomorrow?"
"I tolled him to call me. If you want you cane meet him."

"You know I hared of people meet their mother or father for the first
time, but you would never guess it would happen to you. I'm scared
mom."

"Will there is nothing to be scared about."

"Yes there is, he could try and take us from Dustin or try to kill us
or something."

"William stop it please. I know for a fact that he's not going to try
and take us from Dustin and he's not going to try and kill us
either."

"How do you know mom you haven't seen in 12 years?"

"Because I know him from the inside out. Will if you don't want to
meet him you don't have to and I want bring him into this house if you
feel threading by him that much?"

"It's not that it's just that I don't know if I ready to meet the man
how left you and me."

"You don't have to Will?"

"I want to but I don't want to you know mom?"

"I understand Will. You can think about it and in the morning you can
tell him."

"Thank you. I'm going to go and lay down for a little while."

"Ok night."

"Night."

I sat in my room, I couldn't believe what my mom just tolled me, after
12 years he comes back into my mother's life, I don't really care that
he can back into mine cause it doesn't even feel like he has been in
my life before so to me it doesn't matter. 

I can hear mom coming into my room to see if I'm asleep I'm almost
it's probably around 8:30 9, I can feel her put a blanket on me so I
don't get cold.

"Mom?"

"Yea Will?"

"Will you stay with me until?"

"Sure honey."

"Mom what's his name?"

"Who's?"

"My father's?"

"Fox, but no one calls him that, he goes by Mulder."

"If he's my father then why isn't my last name Mulder?"

"He tolled me that you would be safer as a Scully, so I tolled him I
would give you my last name."

"Do you still miss him?"

"I did when you were a baby but after that I kinda got over it. I had
to move on I had a family to raise, and besides if I missed him to
much all I would have to do is look at you."

"You mean I look like a lot?"

"Yea you do, you have his height, his noise, you defiantly have his
hair, but you have my eyes, my face, defiantly my personality, but you
sometimes act like him, he loved to speak his mind and piss people off
a lot."

"What if I turn out to be like him. I mean what if when I grow up
leave my wife and kids for no reason?"

"William I know for a fact that you wont, through you are like him,
under the conditions then it wasn't safe for him, but it was after 2
years but he still didn't come back for us like he promised."

"I want him to come tomorrow but can you talk to him first?"

"Are you sure Will I mean I can still think about it, he can always
come over another day?"

"I want to meet my father. Mom if you and Dustin do get married he
will always he my dad Mulder will only be my father. Another thing
some one tolled me this once before, any man can be a father it takes
a special man to be a dad."

I smiled at him I didn't know what to say he was giving every good
advice, especially for a young boy to think about.

I lay there with him until he falls asleep, I then walk to the door
close it and walk to my bedroom, I pull out a old shoe box that I hide
under some clothes in my closest. In it a couple of pictures they're
of me and Mulder, Mulder and William when he was a baby and all three
of us together before he left. I think of what it could have been like
it Mulder did come back for us, I picture us having 2 more children
another boy and a little girl. 

William and the other little boy would look like their father a lot
but the little one would have my height and face, the little girl
would look like me when I was little, she would have curly red hair
but a dark red, she could be tall or short like me. We would have 2
dogs; the little girl would play with dolls, but also beat up her
brothers once in a while. She would have a rabbit named angel. The
boy's dogs would be named Brownie and Master P (William's) through she
would play with him also. 

She would be quit and shy around people and hide behind her daddy's
legs. God how much I would have gave up to have that life with
Mulder.

Before I knew it I was asleep. I dreamed of that life with Mulder and
my three children. That's all I wanted was Mulder back for the longest
time, but then I meet Dustin he was sweet, loved kids, especially
loved William. 

We never really talked about his life always mine and what I did and
stuff. I just always thought that maybe he had a bad childhood like
Mulder and didn't like to talk about it or he was married before and
didn't want to go back to those memories, or something. 

I woke up around 9 I could hear something in the kitchen, I grabbed my
gun and went slowly into the dinning room.

"Mom how..."

I was pointing my gun at my own son.

"William Mulder don't you ever do that to me again you scared me I
thought some one was in the house."

"I'm sorry I just thought I would cook breakfast for us before he
can."

"Who can?"

"My father remember? Are you ok mom?"

"Umm sorry yea I'm fine. So what are we having?"

"Well I was trying to make pancakes but I kinda burned then all so
they're garbage, so now I'm making eggs. Mom can you help me please?"

"Sure why don't we make then together?"

"That would be great."

We made breakfast and then we watch T.V together for about 2 hours we
watched mostly Pokeman. Then I got a call; it was someone I totally
forgot about.

"Hello."

"Hey Scully it's me."

"Mulder. I forgot that you were going to call today. Um how are you?"

"I'm fine, and you's?"

"Oh were doing pretty good."

"That's good to hear. How big is he?"

"Excuse me?"

"How big is Will, William."

"He's big. He's going to take after you, he has your nose, my eyes,
your hair. He mostly looks like you. I look at him and I see you."

"Wow, I mean, you know that he looks like me and not like you."

"He wants to meet you."

"He does?"

"Yea I talked to him last night and he said that it would be nice to
meet his father."

"I'm glad he does, cause I would love to meet him. Would he like to
talk to me on the phone first?"

"I don't know, hang on."

Putting the phone down to go ask Will if he wanted to talk to his
father on the phone Mulder wonder if Scully was really telling the
truth about Will looking like him when he look so much like AD Skinner
when he was born. He could hear footsteps and they were light
footsteps not heavy ones like Scully. 

"Hello?"

"Hi William?"

"Yea. You're my dad aren't you?"

"Yes I am."

"Can I ask you a question?"

"Sure."

"Are you coming to see me today?"

"If you want me to?"

"I do."

"Okay. Is it okay with Sc I mean your mom?"

"I'll ask."

He was gone about ten minutes before he returned.

"She tolled me to tell you o come to..."

"I know your apartment number."

"No you don't we moved."

"Oh sorry."

"Come to 1927 apt number 24 Fountain Street Washington."

"I'll be there in about an hour may I talk to your mom again Will?"

"Sure hang on. MOM Mulder wants to talk to you."

'He calls me Mulder' Mulder thought to him self.

"Mulder?"

"Yea?"

"Come don't skip out or you will never see him again and I mean it."

"I'll come I promise."

"Don't promise me nothing. Last time you did that you broke the
promise."

"I'm sorry about that."

"Right. I'll to you when you get here."

Before he could say anything she hung up the phone. 

Mulder thought that maybe he should get William a toy or game or
something, so he grab his stuff and left his house and wife. 

Mulder saw a whole bunch of alien stuff but he didn't know anything
about his child so he thought he would get him a CD.

Scully's Residence 

"Buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz."

"Hello."

"Hi it's me. Can I come up?"

"Hang on."

Click Mulder walked into the building. I walked to the stairs to get
to the second level. When he reached it he knocked on the door and
Scully open it.

"Hi."

"Hello. Can I come in?"

Moving out if his way Scully didn't feel the same thing she did when
they were working together.

"You look nice."

"Thanks."

"So. How you been?"

"Fine before you cam back into my life."

"I'm sorry. Scully listen please before you say anything I have
something to say, I know I promised you that I would be back for you
and William when he was little but I didn't want to hurt you again,
cause I knew that if I came back in it would hurt you because I would
have to leave again someday. 

I've moved on, I have a wife but no children I don't want any. I loved
you and still do but I know you would move on just like I did. You
know how much it hurt me when I made that deceiving not to come back
to you? I wanted to kill my self but I knew one day I would see you
again."

"Mulder, I was mad at you, I wanted you back in my arms where you
belonged with me and William. I wanted to have more children with you
if we could I new you could if you just tried but you didn't come
back. I thought you were dead or dying somewhere where I couldn't help
you. 

When Will was in JK his class put on a Father's Day play and after the
play the kids went up to their father and gave then their gift, Will
couldn't do that cause his father wasn't there. After the play was
over and everything I heard some guys talking, but they didn't know I
was listening, they said this 'Must be a another beat up dad to busy
to come to his kids Father's day play I tell yea, if I was that dude I
would come anyway even if it meant getting fired. My family is more
important.' That hurt me to hear then say that but it was true."

"Scully, I'm sorry for not coming back and for putting William through
that I didn't mean to I really didn't, I wish I could have been there
but it wasn't safe."

"Cut the bull shit Mulder. Anyway your not here to see me you're here
to see your son."

"Where is he?"

"His bedroom waiting for you to come. I'll go and get him, wait
here."

"Scully wait. Can I get him please?"

"Sure."

Walking towards Will's bedroom Mulder held the girl he bought for Will
at the store earlier. Mulder knock hoping he wouldn't be mad at him
for not coming by before to see him.

"Yea?"

"Can I come in?"

"You're my dad."

"Yea I am."

"Where's my mom?"

"She's in the kitchen. Would you like to visit out in the kitchen?"

"Yea where my mom can hear everything you say to me."

"I just want you to know that I am sorry for not coming by to see you
when you were little."

"You think I'm sorry is going to make up for 13 years of not having a
father around? Well I have news for you it doesn't. But you're here
know and that's all the matters."

Walking back to the kitchen that seemed unfamiliar, for one thing it
was a different apartment, two he hasn't seen or talked to Scully in
13 years, and she has a new family.

"So."

"So. How's school been? Your in what grade 6, 7?"

"School's fine. I'm in grade 6."

"That's good you getting good marks, I just asked because you look as
smart as your mom was and still is?"

"I guess I do."

"That's good. Umm here I don't know what group you listen to but I got
you Kci & JoJo. I hope you like them if not you can take it back and
get another one."

"No thank you it's an awesome. I've been wanting this one for about 4
months know."

"Well I glad you like it."

"Yea. I can I ask you a question?"

"Sure."

"Where were you when I was growing up?"

"Umm?"

"He was away on business a lot and he was gone for about a year and he
saw that we had moved on and so he thought it would be better if he
just left us alone."

"Oh. Why didn't you call?"

"I didn't know your phone number because you moved and I didn't know
where you live."

"I'll be right back."

Running to his bedroom William grabbed a picture of someone and bought
it back.

"Here."

"What is it?"

"It's a picture of you, mom and I when I was little I wanted you to
have it that way you would never forget about me again."

"Thank you. Will I'm sorry for not coming by or even back when I said
that I would, or mom tolled me about 20 minutes ago that when you were
in JK when you had to Father's Day play that some other dad's were
making fun of me and it hurt your mom to see you up there all alone
with on dad to go to. 

I wish I were a better father to you. I wish I could have kept my
promise to your mother that I would come back to her and you, we could
have been a family. But you have a family with your mom and her
boyfriend Justin no sorry it was Dustin. I have a family with my wife
but you were my only child and always will be. I better get going. It
was nice to meet you and I hope we can meet again one day soon."

"I hope we can to dad. I love you."

"I love you too son."

"Will why don't you go to your room while I say bye to your father."

"Sure mom, can me dad maybe we can do something on a weekend or
something."

"Sure."

Watching his son go back into his bedroom Mulder knew he made the
right choice to call.

"I want you to know that you can stop by whenever you want to just
call first that would help out a lot."

"Sure. Umm I better get going. It was nice seeing you again. You look
more beautiful then when I was around I think it did you good to get
away from me for a while."

"A while Mulder? It's been 13 years. Why didn't you come back?"

"I did but it just didn't feel right for me to come back into your
life after 2 years away and I didn't know how Will would reacted to me
being around his mommy if he did call you that."

"He was only 2 it would have gotten used to you fast I used to show
him pictures of us, and I had some of your clothes still from when you
left and forgot then here, he would hang on to them for hours
sometimes crying his self to sleep with one of your shirts in his
hands. I always thought that he was picturing you hurt or something,
or him dreaming that something is happening to you in front of him and
he doesn't want to see it."

"I'm sorry, I can't say it enough, sorry wont make up for me not being
here but it's a start isn't it?"

"I loved you and still do but not the same way I used to, the love I
have for you know is nothing more then between good friends. But yes I
did love you before. Your right it doesn't make up for the times you
weren't her but yes it is a start a every good one, know all I'm
asking you is not to make promises to our son not to. Please I don't
want him to go through that I went through ever."

"I promise I want make any promise to him."

"Don't even make then to me just tell me that you will do your best to
try."

"I'll do my best not to make promises to out son. I have to go know
I'll talk to you soon."

"Bye."

"Bye."

Closing the door to her apartment Scully walked back to her son's
room. Her life was really going to be ok, with Mulder back she knew it
was going to be ok.

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