From: "Erin Blair" <eblair@sonic.net>
Date: Wed, 27 Aug 2003 17:42:04 -0700
Subject: NEW: Visions 1/1 by Erin M. Blair
Source: direct

TITLE: Visions
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net
CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORY: SRA--Story, Romance. Angst
CONTENT: Mulder/Scully UST. Scully POV.
RATING: PG
DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to Gossamer, 
After the Fact, The Cutting Room Floor, Ephemeral, and 
Xemplary.  Other archives: please ask me first. I just 
want to know where my stories are going. 
SPOILERS: Elegy. Small spoilers from: Beyond the Sea, 
Duane Barry, Ascension, One Breath, The Blessing Way 
and Memento Mori. 
SETTING:  Season 4.
DATE: August 8, 2003 - First draft.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Thanks to Jen for beta reading. 
DISCLAIMER: Chris Carter created Mulder and Scully, but
David Duchovny and Gillian Anderson brought them to life.
SUMMARY: Scully's letter to Mulder following the events
in "Elegy." Sequel to "You're Not Alone" which is about
Mulder's letter to Scully.

*Written for After the Fact's Elegy challenge.*
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VISIONS
Written by: Erin M. Blair
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Dear Mulder,

There's something that you need to know about me: this case
has brought so many emotions that I don't even know how to 
explain them. I was seeing visions of the dead. I didn't want to 
tell you because I was too afraid of what it meant. However, I 
remember when I first started to work with you, I had a vision of 
my father when he passed away.  When I thought you died in New 
Mexico, I had a vision of you. I just knew you would come
back to me. 

The thing is: I had these visions before I had cancer.  It 
doesn't mean that I'm going to die. I know everybody dies 
eventually, but I've been thinking of my mortality lately. 

I didn't want to tell you how my cancer metastasized
in my bloodstream. I didn't want you to know that it could be
any day....that I would no longer be at your side.  It bothers
me, Mulder. I love you so much and it hurts me to think of 
what would happen if I should die. I don't want you to cry when
I'm gone; I want you to think of how brave I was. I want you
to remember all the times we've shared, both good and bad. My 
mother told me how distraught you were when I was
missing. When I came back from wherever I was, I saw your 
smile light up like a Christmas tree. 

I don't want to leave you, Mulder.  I'm going to fight this cancer
until it's gone. Your truths will always be in me.

~Scully

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Author's Notes:

This story was written for After the Fact's "Elegy" 
post-ep challenge. I had fun writing this story and I
hope you will enjoy it too.

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Erin Blair
eblair@sonic.net