From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: Sun, 25 Feb 2001 17:13:35 -0600
Subject: Wasted  1/1 by Ms Lillian
Source: direct

Reply To: ms_lillian@my-deja.com


Title:  Wasted 1/1  by Ms Lillian ( ms_lillian@my-deja.com  )

Rating: G

Keywords: Spoilers for TINH, Angst, MSR.

Disclaimer:  Not mine. Never mine. Wish I didn't love 'em
so badly.

Archive: Ephemeral, Gossamer fine. Everywhere else fine too,
I'd just love a mail to say where.

Notes at end.



Wasted 1/1


7 years.

Wasted.

My life started, really started 7 years ago.
And it ended tonight.

And you know what? This IS happening.

Every sad, sordid second of this is happening and no
matter how much I tell myself it's not, it is.

It is.

Before, I've had no proof.  No Evidence.  No Body.
This time... This time I know.  
I've seen it, seen the evidence.

I feel it.

He was so cold, So very cold.
His poor, cold face...

And I was too late, damn it.
I let his only hope get away. 
I let him down.


7 years.
Wasted.

I wasted every precious second with him, all the time
he was here, right here beside me.

7 years of pain and pleasure and it ends in a cold empty 
field with people who know nothing, NOTHING about us and 
it's too late to tell the most important person there 
what he needed to know, what he should've known, that I 
was too much of a coward to tell him... Even after 7 years.

7 years.

Wasted.




End


Notes -

Well, although I won't be seeing the episode for a while,
I've seen the end clips and they hurt, hence this story.
Have we ever seen such an emotionally raw Scully?  It's 
going to be a long month until this is resolved.
I just hope the resolution is not this painful too.

Feedback would be most welcome at ms_lillian@my-deja.com