From: Legal Alien Date: Fri, 9 Jun 2000 01:51:26 -0400 (EDT) Subject: NEW: What are we to each other? Title: What are we to each other? Author: loveJanick Rating: PG-13 Category: Love letter, but not so MSR - almost alternate universe & kind of noromo friendly Distribution: Spookys, Gossamer, Ephemeral... Feedback: loveJanick@webtv.net http://www.geocities.com/lovejanick/xpage.html Spoilers: None Summary: Let's say Scully is in love with her best friend, Mulder, and she's still fertile. Let's say he doesn't seem to love her back, even if they do have sex together once in a while, and he's going away on a long trip. She writes a letter she probably won't send. Author's note(s): Under the text Disclaimer: I so wish they were mine... ****************************************************** I want to ask you to stay, but I know you won't. I want to ask you to not be intimate with other women, but I know you'll decline my request. I want to ask you no to fall in love with anyone else but me, but you don't even love me. What am I to you? If not just a friend? If not just a sex partner? If not any other woman? How could you fulfill my wishes when I'm not even someone you can find in your heart to love more than for my mind and ass? Who are you, you that doesn't want to commit to something that's been existing for years? It's right there, in front of your eyes and under your nose. It's close enough to be tasted, but you don't even want to test it. Who am I to keep trying to break through to you? Who am I if I see what is real, but still hope for a dream, a miracle, to come true? Who am I to miss many opportunities because I'm blinded by you? What are you to me? To me, you are a dear friend and a passionate lover. To me, you're not just any other man, but "the one" and only. To me, you're the person I'd leave everything I have behind for. You're the man I want to have kids with. But... You never ask me to stay. You never ask me to not sleep with other men. You never ask me not to fall in love with anyone else but you, and I do love you already. So... Should I still hope? Should I still believe in hope? Open your eyes and look at me. Can't you see that you have all that you can dream of right in front of you?... Someone that loves you! ****************************************************** Author's note(s): Was it easy to tell that I didn't write this as an XF fanfiction? Still, I need your opinion on a love matter... In fact, I am the narrator of the letter and the man on the other end is my best friend. Should I give him this letter before he leaves for the summer (five months in total)? We've known each other for years, but I never knew if he loved me as much as I loved him. I still do love him very much, but I'm afraid I'll suffer from a terrible heartbreak if I don't tell him. Or, I'll have to get over him quickly. Anyway... Thanks for reading and I hope you can help me with this love problem.