From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org
Date: 20 Jun 2001 22:54:54 -0000
Subject: Where I Belong by spookyluv_17
Source: direct

Reply To: brandi@clarityconnect.com


Title: Where I Belong   
Author:Spookyluv_17	
Email: spookyluv_17@yahoo.com
Rating: R  
Classification: VR MSR
Spoilers: All things
Summary: Scully's musings about what 
happened after.


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I come out of the bathroom and watch 
him sleep while I finish dressing.  He's 
actually sleeping in his bed...well I guess 
it can be considered our bed now.  What a 
strange concept.  I've always kept my 
distance, my emotions toward Mulder in 
check, but last night was different.  I 
told him everything about Daniel and I.  I 
spilled my heart about what had happened 
years ago and just recently in the 
hospital and in the temple.  I didn't tell 
him about the woman I was pursuing when I 
found him on the sidewalk though.  I just 
couldn't.  He seemed to listen through the 
whole story, which is more than I can say.  
As soon as he started talking about how 
much sense it all made I fell asleep on 
him.
I felt him cover me up with the 
blanket on the back of the couch.  He 
lingered close to me for a second then I 
felt him get up and leave.  I fell right 
back to sleep after that.  It was a few 
hours before I woke up again.  I looked 
over at the bright fish tank only to see 
an angelfish staring back out at me.  Well 
maybe he wasn't looking at me but he was 
still looking out into the world that 
surrounded his "safe waters." A world that 
he could never venture.  In that moment I 
realized that I have a "safe water." It's 
my ordinary, everyday life.    That area 
that I occasionally glimpse out upon is 
the world surrounding my everyday life, 
the world where Mulder and I have taken 
that extra step in our relationship. No 
more sexual innuendo, no more flirting, 
but the step that includes more than just 
occasional hugs or kisses on the forehead, 
it includes tender, embraces and loving 
kisses and the sharing of our bodies.  
I'm tired of taking glimpses; I want 
the real thing.  I get up off the couch 
and feed Mulder's fish.  There are only 
two.  Both are angelfish.  I watch them 
swim for a moment then turn to go into 
Mulder's room.  I only want to tell him 
that I am leaving, but as I see him 
sleeping I want to stay.  I make myself 
comfortable in the chair across from his 
bed and watch him sleep.  He's breathing 
deeply so I know he's been asleep for 
awhile.  He looks so beautiful when he 
sleeps, no worry lines or frowns, just a 
peaceful Mulder.  I wish he could sleep 
more often, but his nightmares just shock 
him out of sleep.  He's been dealing with 
them for years.  I wish I could help him 
more.
During my thoughts I never noticed 
the itching in my nose.  Suddenly I 
sneezed..loudly.  I turned quickly to see 
if I had woken up Mulder, only to see him 
sitting up in bed staring at me with a 
smirk on his face.  I hadn't noticed what 
little clothing he had on until this 
moment, I could tell that there was not a 
stitch of clothing on the man.
"Jeez, Scully, If you wanted to wake me up 
all you had to do was call out to me."
"Sorry Mulder."
"Are you ok...I thought you were sleeping."
"I was, but I woke up.  I was going to 
tell you that I'm going home."
"So soon."
"Yeah, it's only a few hours before work 
starts so I'd better be going."
"Alright. I'll see you at work."
"Yeah, I'll see you...Thanks for tonight."  
    With that I turned and started out of 
his bedroom.
"Scully?"
"Yeah Mulder?" 
"Stay...with me."
"Mulder..."
"Please." 
    I have all the reasons in the world 
to tell him no and only one reason to say 
yes, but I don't hesitate with my answer.
"Sure."
    I turn to go back to the couch when I 
hear him move from the bed.  He moves up 
behind me and puts his arms around my 
waist and his chin on my shoulder.  I 
could smell him...it was delightful.
"Where are you going, Scully?"
"Back to the couch."
"When I asked you to stay with me, I meant 
here with me."
"Oh."
"Yeah."
"Ok, then."
"I'll be back...nature calls."
    I stand where he left me for a moment 
contemplating what to do next.  I see a t-
shirt lying on the floor and lift it to my 
nose, inhaling Mulder.  I decide he won't 
care if I use it for a nightshirt and lay 
it on the bed while I take off the rest of 
my clothes.  Climbing into bed with only 
my panties and his t-shirt on, I wait 
patiently for him to come out of the 
bathroom.  When he does, I don't watch as 
he comes out, turned away from him I curl 
into a little ball under the covers.  I 
feel him sink into the mattress beside me, 
then curl his body around me.  I already 
like the feel of his naked arms and legs 
against mine, so I know I will want more.  
"Scully, you know what I have been 
thinking?"
"What's that Mulder?"
"I've been thinking that things need to 
change around here."
"What things?" 
"Oh ya know, things concerning...us."
"I think I've been thinking about that 
too."
"And what are your thoughts, Scully."
"What are yours?"
"Well I thought maybe we should finish 
something we started in my hallway a 
couple of years back."
"I was thinking the same thing."
"That's good...turn over Scully."
    I did and that's when I knew I 
belonged there with him.  Touching him 
like that, so close...I loved it, but I 
couldn't help but ask a simple question of 
us.
"Do you think we're ready for this, 
Mulder?"
"Well I'm ready, been ready for years, and 
you seem ready so I think we can handle 
it...are you ready Scully?"
"I think so."
    I barely had the words out when 
Mulder touched his lips to mine.  It was 
our first real kiss, the one I had been 
waiting for, we'd been waiting for.  It 
was wonderful.  After he pulled away he 
placed his lips over my heart.
"Scully, you know I love you right?" 
"I know...I love you too."
"Stay with me always?" 
"Mulder, I made that decision years 
ago...I'm not leaving, you know that."
"I know, but I want to make sure that your 
sure."
"Mulder shut up."
    I dragged his head back to mine for 
another kiss only this time it was much 
deeper. Our hands wandered over each 
other's bodies until we were both 
speechless, in awe that this could 
actually be happening.  Finally I ended up 
fully undressed and when Mulder entered me 
for the first time I knew I was were I 
belong.  
    Hours later I woke up to the rain 
pounding on the windows.  It was 4:30 and 
I still had to drive home to get ready for 
work.  I quietly lifted myself from the 
bed and went into the bathroom, where I 
washed up and dressed for the drive home.  
I stepped out of the bathroom to see 
Mulder still asleep only he was sprawled 
out over the bed, taking up the side I had 
previously occupied.  I checked to make 
sure his alarm was set and wrote him a 
quick note explaining my absence. Then I 
took one last glance at my new lover and 
walked out the door.  
    I arrived at work before him, which 
was unusual, so I took that time to think 
about things.  While my computer booted 
up, I leaned back in my chair and closed 
my eyes thinking about everything that 
happened in the last few hours.  Mulder 
chose that moment to sneak up on me and 
scare me.
"What are you thinking about, Scully?"
    I almost tipped my chair when I heard 
his voice in my ear and his breath in my 
hair.  
"Jesus, Mulder."
"What were you thinking about, Scully?"
"Last night, but I think you knew that."
"Yeah I did...any regrets?" 
"Not a one...you."
"Only one...that I didn't get to wake up in 
your arms."
"Well we'll have to try again, Mulder, say 
tonight at my place? You can bring a suit 
for tomorrow and I'll even cook you 
dinner."
"Sounds good Scully."
    He pulled me into his arms and leaned 
in for a kiss.
"I love you."
"I love you."
    He leaned in again to steal another 
kiss, only to be interrupted by the phone.  
Skinner.  Mulder pulled away to answer it 
as I sat in my chair, the whole time 
thinking Mulder is where I belong. 

The End