From: BlondeAmb01@aol.com Date: Fri, 1 Sep 2000 17:42:26 EDT Subject: New story: While you were missing. Source: direct Title: While You Were Missing Author: Lizabelle Rating: NC-17 Keywords: MSR, A, X-Files (sort of), Post- Episode Spoilers: Requiem, All Things, Sixth Extinction. The Genie one (a little bit) Disclaimer: They're not mine. They belong to Chris Carter and 1013 Production. No infringement intended. I'm not making any money off of this- pure entertainment. Summary: Basically the scenes that we never got to see. Missing Requiem and All Things scenes. Scully goes through the pregnancy alone. She finds out what CSM's intentions really were in En Ami. How will everyone react to her pregnancy? What's really happening to Mulder? Will Mulder make it in time? Pure sap folks!! Author's Notes: I've been bored all summer waiting for hiatus to be over with. The Annex, God knows, hasn't updated their site in months. I'm bored waiting for some good, long fanfic. Since I'm so bored at work, I wrote this story. This is the classic-type story that I know I would go straight for if I were reading it. Special thanks to Monica, your support was great and to Nanny for making fun of how sappy of a story this really is. Feedback: BlondeAmb01@aol.com "While You Were Missing." Part 1: Never Say Good-bye "I'm pregnant." Skinner looked at Scully with an expression of shock and fear. It wasn't a doubt who the father was to him but for a split moment, he pitied her. "How?" he whispered, unable to speak. Scully's hands became very interesting to her for a few moments. She arched her eyebrow and sniffled back the tears that were beginning to from again in her eyes. "I mean." words were becoming difficult for him now. The situation was definitely one of the most uncomfortable he's ever been in. ".Agent Mulder's report during your cancer treatment stated that because of the tests caused by your abduction, you were unable to conceive a child." After hearing Mulder's name, Scully tears came freely now. Skinner grabbed a chair from the side of her bed and sat down next to her. Scully tried to stay stoic, but remembering the love that she saw in his eyes when he looked at her in that hallway made Scully's heart brake. "I know sir," she whispered still fascinated by her hands. "Sir, um. all I know is that Mulder's gone when I need him the most. And yes sir, this baby is Mulder's but that is the only certainty that I have.and I don't even know if I have it." She looked him fully in the eyes. Her own eyes red and glistening from the unshed tears that were beginning to form in her eyes again. Skinner always known that they have something special, not necessarily the fact that they are having sex, but something that he's never noticed in any of his other agents and seeing Scully like this over Agent Mulder tore his heart out. "What do you mean you're not certain of that?" "Sir, I was told by countless doctors that I would never be able to have children and now all of a sudden I can. I don't understand it.but I think that I have to make it my point to." With that Skinner got up from his chair. He walked over to the bed and took Scully's hand for a gentle squeeze. She smiled up at him, took a deep and breath and closed her eyes. She needed to be alone to think all of this over. Skinner left the room. Scully reached for her neck but remembered that nothing was there. She felt empty without it. She told him to bring it back with him because he had always brought it back to her. The necklace always came back and she was certain that it would this time too. Scully thought about the time when she had given him her cross and she remembered that she never even got to say good-bye to him. or at least the way she wanted to. ******* "I won't let you go alone," she said to him as he held her close. She was so afraid of losing him. She didn't understand the fear that she had. She felt secure in his arms, safe. He pulled back from her. Her eyes her brimmed with tears. His eyes were full of love, compassion and fear. Fear for her or fear for him, she'll never know. At that moment, they didn't care if Skinner walked out of his office and saw them standing there. Mulder cupped her face and looked directly into her eyes searching for something that he already knew was there. Scully's mouth turned in the corners and she started to cry openly. She couldn't understand why she was so emotional and why she was so scared. Women's intuition maybe. Mulder saw this and before she could cry anymore, Mulder leaned down and took her lips with his. The kiss was chaste yet ever so passionate. Mulder could taste the tears on her lips. She wrapped her arms around his waist and let the kiss take her over. His tongue traced her lips waiting for them to open. Scully tilted her head further so the kiss could deepen. He traced along the inside of her mouth. He tasted everything about her. Once their tongues met, both elicited a moan from the sheer contact alone. Mulder wanted to remember her this way so being away wouldn't seem that bad. When they pulled away, their eyes were closed and they just stood there holding each other forehead to forehead. Scully broke away first and reached behind her neck to unclasp her necklace. "I want you take this with you," she said to him. "Scully." Mulder started in, but she interrupted him. "No Mulder, wait." she took a deep breath and regained her thoughts. "Every time this is away from me, it always finds its way back. I need you to come back to me Mulder. I.I don't know what I would do if something happened to you" "He closed the space between him and wrapped his arms around her small frame. She rested her head on his shoulder. "I love you" She whispered into his neck. Mulder's eyes closed when he heard what she said to him. He held her as tight at he could. "Scully.God.I promise you that I'll come back to you.I love you." They broke the embrace and she placed the necklace in his hand closing it with her fingers. A few seconds later, Skinner walked out the door with Krycek and Marita. "Agent Mulder are you ready to go?" Skinner asked. "Yeah." He turned back to Scully. "Bye, Scully" he said. All three started to leave. Once he was out of distance, she whispered. "Bye, Mulder." ** Scully's tears were falling from her face, one by one. She lowered her bed and tried to sleep but every time she closed her eyes she saw Mulder's face as he told her good-bye. Sleeping was not going to be easy tonight, she told herself. End of Part 1 Part 2: While you were gone Journal of Dana Scully Mulder, Just like I wrote you when I was getting treatment for my illness, I'm writing you when you're gone and I'm alone waiting for you to return to me. Mulder, I found something out while you were gone. I'm pregnant Mulder. I still can't believe it myself. I live everyday in utter shock and disbelief of what's growing inside my body. This baby Mulder.this baby is you and me. It's amazing to think that after all we've gone through together, you're going to be the father of my child when I believed that I was unable to have one. Mulder I would chose no other. If I could have any man in the world to be the father of my child, I would only chose you. Mulder, we have an amazing and very special relationship- one that is like no other. I wouldn't give it up for the world. I can feel you Mulder and I pray that you return safely to me. I don't know what I would do if you didn't. Mulder we've talked a lot about fate lately and I've come to realize that if we were destined to be together in every life that we have then we will always be. I know that you will come back to me Mulder. As funny as this is going to sound coming from me- you're destined to. I remember that night that I came to you and told you about a part of my life with another man. You listened with open ears and an open heart. I fell asleep listening to you talk about destiny and fate. I woke up and realized that I was meant to be with you forever and always. You made love to me that night, Mulder. It was so much more than a physical pleasure, it was an emotional release. Mulder making love doesn't describe the feelings that were running through my body that night. I never believed that our feelings for each other could go to the next level, but they did and I do not regret them for a moment. I know you feel the same way. I've known I loved you since the first day I met you and you told me that that's why they put the "I" in FBI. I'm not going to give up, Mulder, I can't. I won't. If I quit now, they win and that's what they want. Come home to me Mulder. I love you. Scully Part 3: The Last Time Scully woke the next morning in her bed, alone. She still wasn't used to that feeling. For most nights since the first time they made love they've been swapping apartments. She could still smell him on her pillow. She pulled it close and took it the smell. It was like he never left. She closed her eyes and imagined the first time that they made love in her apartment. ** "Steel Magnolias Scully, really?" "Mulder, you said that if we ever went to my apartment we could watch Steel Magnolias. Plus, I just thought that a change in pace would be nice. We don't really get to use my place much." "No, Scully, no we don't." He ran and flopped down on her couch. He put one arm behind his head and took the bottle of beer to his lips. Scully just laughed to herself and sat down in front of the couch with beer and popcorn in hand. Soon the screen filled with Daryl Hannah walking down the street. Mulder's hell had begun. Mulder could see just the side of Scully's face. The screen lighting it up and making her features dance. The movie was almost over. He couldn't believe that he'd been watching her the entire time. She brought the beer bottle up to her lips. Seeing Scully do that caused a rush of heat to go from his head straight to his groin. Scully slightly noticed that he was watching her but didn't want to let him know that she knew. She liked it when he watched her - it made her feel like she was wanted. She could feel his eyes on her body. That sent a rush to right between her legs. "God you're beautiful" -Shit, did I say that out loud?!?!- Mulder thought. They were both shocked when she turned to him. He couldn't believe that he had actually said it out loud. Scully turned back to the movie and tried to shrug it off but the movie was over and now she had nothing to direct her attention to. - Clean- she thought. She went and picked up the popcorn and empty beer bottles off the floor and went into the kitchen. -Why am I so fucking nervous? It's just Mulder. No big deal. We've done this before. Get over it Dana!- While Scully was wiping down the sinks Mulder came back up behind her, wrapped his arms around her waist and planted small kisses on her neck. Scully dropped the sponge and moaned. The feeling of his lips on her neck made her body shudder with sheer pleasure. She stood straight and leaned back against him. She could feel his erection pressing through his jeans. She tilted her head to the side. Mulder pulled her hair away from her neck and passionately kissed it there. When he flicked his tongue over her collar bone she moaned and could instantly feel his erection grow harder in his jeans. His hands started to roam around the front of her body. She laced her hands in his and followed him wherever he went. He started with her stomach, then moved to her breasts. She moaned again when their hands found her nipples and gently toyed with them. Mulder broke away from her neck and watched his hands slide over her body. Her body was arched against his leaving only her head and legs touching Mulder's body. Her hips jerked up when his hands slid over her groin and cupped her most tender spot. He turned her around to look at her face. It was flushed and her eyes pleaded for more. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. She could feel his erection throbbing through his pants. He leaned down and captured her lips between his. He traced his tongue along her lips and parted them to gain entrance. Mulder tilted his head to deepen the kiss. Her tongue entered his mouth and traced along the roof of it. She went over his teeth and his lips. She reached in-between them and stroked him through his pants. His moan broke the kiss. "You keep doing that and this won't last much longer Scully." His voice was deep and breathy. "Then why don't we do something about it?" Scully's voice was low, husky and soft. He smiled and followed her into her bedroom. Mulder stood by the door watching Scully as she turned around to meet him. She was inside the room and he was at the door. With about 6 feet in-between them, Scully stripped off her shirt, her hair flying in every- which-way. She stood there in her bra and pants looking at Mulder. Mulder leaned against the door, crossing his arms over his chest. His face crept into a smile. She turned to her pants next. She undid the button and then the zipper. Slowly, she slid her pants down her hips and off of her legs. She kicked her pants up and threw them across the room. Scully started for her bra, but Mulder reached for her and stopped her from having all of the fun. "Mulder, you're wearing too many clothes", she breathed just inches from his face. He ran his fingers down her arms causes goose bumps to rise from her skin. She ran her hands underneath his shirt. Up his muscular back and around to his hardened stomach and pecks. She felt his muscles twitch under her touch. She pulled it over his head and automatically took her mouth to one of his nipples. A moan came out of his lips. His eyes closed. "Scully" he whispered. She took his pants and started to take them off, his hips moving with her hands to ease the restriction away from his erection. He kicked the pants away from his legs and moved them to the side. She stroked his erection and felt it twitch. He involuntarily bucked his hips toward her hand. Before he could open his eyes to look at Scully, she took the waist- band from his pants and pulled it down. She dropped to her knees and toyed with his erection. She ran her tongue down his length not taking him in whole yet. Her hand went to his balls and squeezed softly. She placed wet kisses along the tip. She put in fully in her mouth and ran her tongue along the underside of his tip eliciting a moan from his lips. She started sucking and with each suck and moan came from his lips. She stopped and looked at his body. His head was thrown back, eyes closed and mouth open. "Scully" he breathed. She stood up and captured his mouth with her. He could taste himself on her. It was the most erotic thing that he could describe. Mulder led them to the bed. Scully sat there and put her arm out to stop him from coming any closer. Her eyes met his and she watched as he looked at her body. She reached behind her and unclasped her bra. She gently and slowly slid if off her shoulders, one by one. She watched as his eyes grew large when it finally revealed her breasts. Mulder's breath caught in his throat. She was beautiful to him. "God Scully.you're beautiful." Her breath shuddered when she heard him say that. She laid down and slowly took her panties off while watching Mulder's eye grow large and hearing his breath grow more rapid. Once she was done. She came to her and gently lowered himself on top of her. Once their skin made contact both moaned. Scully's nipples were rock hard and begged to be touched. Mulder braced himself on his forearms. He took her hair and moved it away from her face. He just studied her face, taking in her beauty. He bent down and kissed her passionately. He moved from her lips to her cheek to her neck. He stayed at her neck for a while. He traced his tongue along her collarbone and the dip in her neck. She arched her neck to allow better access. Still kissing her neck, he took one of his hands and started kneading her breasts. She moaned with his touch. "Mulder" she breathed, her breath getting more ragged. He moved from her neck down to the middle of her breasts. He kissed there using both of his hands to fondle her breasts. He moved to the right one and took the nipple in-between his teeth. He sucked on her while still playing with the other one. He bit her nipple gently causing her to moan and arch her back. He moved to the next one and did the same. Scully moaned and arched her back with the pleasure. Mulder moved down and kissed her stomach. He moved farther and stopped just before he got to the apex of curls between her legs. He took her knees and gently parted them taking in her scent. He took his fingers and separated her folds. She was wet and swollen. She moaned when his fingers found her core and gently entered her. He watched as she started to wither with each touch and thrust of his fingers. He pulled his fingers out of her heat and took his mouth to her. She cried out, her back completely off of the bed. He made love to her center. He brought his tongue to her clit and she cried out his name again. "Mulder!!!" He circled his tongue around her clit bringing her closer and closer. He could feel her body tighten and tense up. He placed his mouth directly over her clit and sucked on it. Once, twice, three times and she came hard for him, her body thrashing on the bed then collapsing in a heap, exhausted. He came up to her face and kissed her there. Her body was shaking from the orgasm. She looked up at him and saw love and tenderness in his eyes. She parted her legs and grabbed his butt to bring him closer to her. "Make love to me Mulder". With that said, he took himself in his hand and guided him to her entrance. Both moaned with his tip found her entrance. He slowly entered himself in her. She brought her legs back further allowing him to enter deeper. He stopped movement for a minute allowing her to get used to the size. She brought her hips up to me his and his started to move along with hers. He brought his length out of her so that just the tip was inside, then baried it back inside. He could feel her muscles tense around his. She came for him calling out his name. With each contraction Mulder slammed in harder causing his orgasm to take him over the edge. He threw his head back and cried out Scully's name. He emptied himself into her and collapsed on top. Their breathing was still ragged. It took Mulder all the strength he had to look at Scully and kiss her on the lips. He broke away. Both kept their eyes closed. He whispered, "I love you" pressing his forehead against hers. Her breath was still fast but she replied, "I love you too, Mulder." Mulder rolled off of Scully taking her with him. She laid her head on his shoulder. He wrapped on arm around her waist and the other held her hand that was laying on his chest. They fell asleep in each other's arms. That was the last time that they made love. ** She glanced over at the clock. 9:30 A.M. "Shit" she said aloud. She had a brunch appointment with her mother in an hour. Brunch sounded terrible to her and thinking about it made her feel nauseated. She made it just in time to pray to the porcelain Gods. "I don't think I'll be eating very much this morning" she thought to herself before getting into the shower. Lucy's Caf, Georgetown 10:35 AM "Hi Mom" Scully said to her mother as she went to hug her. "Hi Dana, how are you?" "I'm fine mom." "How's work.Fox?" Mrs. Scully noticed the look on her daughter's face when she mentioned Mulder. It was like she wasn't there - in some other place other than where she really was. "Honey, what is it?" Scully's eyes welded up with tears and she nonchalantly brushed them away from her face hoping that no one sees her crying. "Dana, talk to me please. What's wrong?" "Mom Mulder's gone. We were doing a case in Oregon and um. . .and um. . .he was abducted. I wasn't there mom, but Assistant Director Skinner was and he saw everything." She couldn't look at her mother. She played with her napkin trying not to look because she knew if she did she would lose it. "Dana, why weren't you there?" "I was sick . . . and Mulder thought that it was me who was in danger of being taken when it was really him. I stayed behind." Her lips quivered but she gained control and stopped anything before it started. "There's something else I need to tell you mom. It's really the reason why I asked to see you. Um . . . um . . ." Scully closed her eyes trying to think how she was going to say this. "I'm pregnant." Her mother's face registered nothing but complete shock. Her mother smiled at her but you could sense her fear. "Dana . . . I thought you couldn't have children . . . I mean . . . " "I know mom. I can't really explain it, but um . . . .um . . . I just wish that Mulder were here, seeing this and believing this with me." "So it is Fox's?" Her mother asked with a pleading look in her eyes. She knew her daughter wasn't promiscuous but reassurance would be nice. Scully nodded and her lips quivered again. -Get a hold of yourself Dana. Snap out of it!- Scully thought to herself. "I know sweety, I know" Her mother placed a hand on Scully's to reassure that everything would be all right. Scully's apartment 10:15 P.M. Same day RING!!!! Scully awoke from where she was sleeping on the couch to her phone ringing incessantly. "Hello?" she said in a sleepy voice "How stupid can you be Dana?" an angry voice hollered over the other line "Bill stop!" She warned "Dana, where is that son of a bitch? Mom said that he's gone. He left you Dana, don't you get it. That sorry son of a bitch left you because he knew that you were pregnant" he yelled at her "Bill knock it off! I don't need this right now. Good- bye Bill" She hung up the phone. She closed her eyes to try to fight down the tears but she couldn't. She wept openly, letting herself cry. Suddenly crying so hard caused her to become nauseated and she rushed to the bathroom to empty her stomach into the toilet. J. Edgar Hoover Building Washington D.C. One Week Later 7:30 AM Scully walked into their office- her office now. She took a couple days off because morning sickness consumed her body. She didn't know how she was going to be able to handle another couple months of this. It was difficult to walk into that office when he wasn't there to be with her. The office was still a mess. Agents came in and searched for something to find regarding Mulder's whereabouts. Papers were scattered every which way and that, folders were all over the floor, Mulder's desk had been ransacked and the contents were lying on the floor. Scully closed her eyes and took a deep breath to fight back the tears that were forming in her eyes. The office smelled of Mulder. She walked over to his desk and placed her coat on it. She noticed the "I WANT TO BELIEVE" poster hanging on the bulletin board. She walked over to it and placed her fingers on the UFO lightly dragging them over the paper. "Agent Scully, how are you feeling?" Assistant Director Skinner said as he stood in the doorway of the basement office. Scully looked at him and promptly looked back at the poster. She smiled and took her hand off the poster. "I'm fine sir, thank you." She turned and looked around the room. It was really a mess. Skinner walked into the office, carefully stepping over the strewn folders and papers. "They were looking for evidence. They thought that. . ." Scully interrupted. "They thought what sir? Thought that maybe if they couldn't find anything maybe Mulder really was abducted by aliens? Why wasn't I notified of this sir?" Scully stood in front of him with her hands placed on her hips. She had "the look" on her face the entire time. She could not have been more livid that she was. "I didn't want to upset you. Plus, the agents working to find Mulder are not in my jurisdiction." Skinner looked down at his feet. "Then whose jurisdiction are they in?" "Assistant Director Kersh." Scully threw her head back and paced around the office. "Son of a bitch" she breathed under her breath. She couldn't take this. "I'm sorry sir, but I think I need to get to work." She motioned to the mess on the floor. Skinner nodded and turned to leave. "And sir. . . with all due respect, I don't think you're in your jurisdiction to assume what will make me upset or not." He left her alone standing in the office. She didn't know where to start. Their files were all over the floor. It would take weeks to figure out what pictures and reports went to which folder. God knows there was enough. She exhaled a deep breath and bent down to start picking up the files. She placed the papers on his desk and went to another pile. Once all the papers were off of the floor, his desk was completely covered. She put all of his desk paraphernalia back and sat down to sort the files. Most of the files weren't that difficult to put back together. God knows the mutants and monsters that she'd seen were memorable enough to remember where they were supposed to go. Soon, the floor of the office became the filing cabinet. She had files from A to Z, each pile being a new letter to categorize it. Once she was done, it was almost 10:00 at night. She sat down and looked at the files on the floor. -What were they looking for? -She thought to herself. Out of the corner of her eye, she noticed a book in the corner of the office. It was the book that Agent Fowley sent her from the case in Africa, when Mulder was sick earlier this year. She went over to it and picked it up. She didn't know what she was looking for but something had to be in it. She randomly picked through it and noticed a chapter that dealt with the power of God. Now she remembered! Right before she hit that crazy guy over the head with the chair he was ranting about how the fish came back alive. The ship caused the fish to come back alive. It had powers to heal. She rested her head on her hands and closed her eyes. She thought back to Africa and what she saw. ** It was the answer to all things. It was the most beautiful work that she'd ever seen in her entire life. Teachings of Mohammed and the Human Genome. She couldn't believe it. The ship was causing the warnings of the end of the world: boils, the sea of blood. It's magical powers caused her to re-think her faith and what she knew to be true - or at least what she thought was true. The ship had powers. Something had to be here. Regarding Mulder, regarding her pregnancy, she didn't know, but she knew it had something to do with that ship. It had the power to heal, to bring back a life, could it be responsible for her fertility? ** She got up and picked up the phone. She dialed the number and waited for a response. "Lone Gunman" "Langley turn off the recorder" "Scully, what's up?" "I'm coming over. I need all the things you guys have on that ship in Africa I saw earlier this year. I'll explain when I get there." "Okay chickadee" "Watch it Langley" "Sorry" She hung up the phone and grabbed her jacket, the book and file on Africa and left the office. LONE GUNMAN OFFICE WASHINGTON DC 11:00 PM "Are you guys going to let me in?" Scully asked looking into the video camera. "Yeah hold on Scully" Frohike said unlocking the obscene amount of locks on the door. "What happens if there's a fire Frohike. How the hell are you going to get out in time?" Scully walked into their cellar carrying the book and the file. "Agent Scully don't you think that you should be home resting?" Byers said to her pulling his robe closed. She shot him the look and went back to pulling out the pictures. "So, what'd you find for me?" She said crossing her arms over her chest and leaning against the table. "There was a strong electrical field surrounding that ship Scully. We think that's why all the things were happening. It had energy, energy that can't be explained." Byers said to her as he pulled out photos of electrical currents surrounding the ship. "I saw something. It healed things and killed them at the same time. Why? I . . . I think it could explain this." She motioned to her stomach. All three men's eyes followed her hands. Their eyes got really big and at the same time they turned back to the photo. "I need to know. Could this ship explain . . . everything? Everything that's happened to me and Mulder?" Scully grew quiet as she said that last statement. This was all too much for her to handle right now. "I um . . . I need to go." She turned to leave. "Scully are you all right?" Frohike asked. She turned back around to them. "I'm fine. I um just need to get home." She sort of smiled and left the office. SCULLY'S APARTMENT 12:05 AM Scully walked into her apartment and turned on the light next to the phone. The light was blinking. Lately she'd been checking her messages religiously hoping beyond hope that something would be there regarding Mulder. Anything. She pushed the button and walked into the kitchen opening the `fridge and taking a look for a midnight snack - so to speak. "You have 3 new messages. Message 1 at 9:30 AM Monday" "Hi this message is for Dana Scully. Mrs. Scully, I' calling to remind you about your appointment with Dr. Webber this Thursday at 12:00 PM. Thank you." "Woopy-Doo" Scully said grabbing some cheese out of the `fridge. "Next New Message at 11:21 AM Monday" "Dana, it's your brother. Please call me. We need to talk. I'm sorry Dana." "Not on your life Bill" Scully said slipping some cheese into her mouth and cutting off another. Beep "Next new message from 11:50 PM Monday" "Scully it's Frohike, we found something that you might want to take a look at . . . uh, erase this when you hear it." Beep. Scully ran over to the phone and dialed their number. "Hey, it's Scully. What'd you find?" "Remember a couple months ago, when the smoking man took you for a little ride . . . " Scully closed her eyes and placed her hand on her stomach. She imagined Mulder's face when she was sitting on his couch and he was in the doorway. "Well, the technology that was supposed to be on the disk that you gave us is the same technology or power or whatever you want to call it that was on the ship." "The cure for all things?" "To say the least." "So . . .wait a minute. Just by coming in contact with the ship causes you to be healed by all human disease? That means anyone who was there . . ." She sat in the chair by her door. "Yes . . . well sort of. Scully, you're immune to the alien virus. You were given the vaccine in Antarctica. And, you have the alien chip in your neck. You have alien technology in your body. I know it sounds weird but because of what's in your body, you were susceptible to that energy field." Scully couldn't believe what she was hearing. "So . . . if I didn't have the technology in me . . ." "It would do the opposite. It would turn itself against you." Scully remembered the man and the boils and the doctor with the man who came back alive and then killed the doctor. "So what does this mean?" She asked, her breath catching in her throat. "It means that everything that . . . you're cured from anything that was wrong or is wrong with you. That means you sterility" Scully's breath caught and she started crying silently over the phone. "Scully. . . Scully are you there? . . . Scully!!!" "I'm here. I just . . . I don't know how to take this information right now. I'll um I'll call you guys later." She hit the off button on her phone and let it drop to the floor. She closed her eyes and laid back against the chair. -This is too much. I can't take it. It's way too weird. It has to be explained. It has to- Scully got up and slowly walked into the bedroom. She undressed letting the clothes fall haphazardly on the floor. She went to her mirror in the bathroom and looked at her bare stomach. She placed her hands on her stomach. It wasn't hard yet but in a couple of weeks it would be. "Mulder where are you?" She whispered. -I need you right now Mulder- She thought as she climbed into bed and went to sleep. Part 4: Miracle Indeed TUESDAY Journal of Dana Scully Mulder, I need you more than ever right now. I found out something from the guys last night. That ship I found in Africa had powers that I never realized before. God Mulder I need your strength right now. I need your strong arms to hold me and tell me that it's going to be all right. That ship cured me Mulder. Because of everything that's happened to my body, that ship has caused me to get well again; consequently, being able to bear your child. I'm so confused Mulder. I don't know where to begin or where to end. So many questions and uncertainties roaming through me right now, the biggest one, of course, being the person growing inside of me. What if something's wrong with him/her. If alien technology is what caused me to be able to bear children, what if it's the cause as well? I don't think I could handle something like what happened to Emily again. I couldn't do it Mulder, especially if you're not here to be with me. I miss you so much Mulder. I miss waking up in the morning and having you sleeping next to me. I don't know how much more of this I can take alone Mulder. I wish I could hear you. I wish I could see your face again. Scully OFFICE OF DR. JACK WEBBER OBGYN GEORGETOWN MARYLAND THURSDAY 11:55 AM Scully walked into her doctor's office and signed in. She sat in one of the chairs and looked around the room. Other women were sitting in there, most with their husbands and protruding bellies. They were young, ambitious women. Some had other children with them, some didn't. Scully felt out of place. She was older, not as ambitious, early in her pregnancy and without the father of her child here by her side. "Dana Scully?" Scully got up and walked towards the woman at the door "Hi" she said once she closed the door behind her. "Right this way. We need to get your weight." Scully took off her shoes and got on the scale. "From your records it looks like you've lost some weight" The nurse said looking through her charts "I've had some morning sickness." Scully said putting on her shoes. They walked into the doctor's office together. "Okay Dana, you need to get completely nude and put on this gown. I'll be back in to get your temperature and blood pressure. . . oh, we need a urine sample." She handed Scully the cup. The nurse left and Scully went into the bathroom to do the deed. When the nurse came back in Scully was in the gown with her legs dangling over the side of the table. "How are you feeling lately Dana?" The nurse asked when she walked back in. "Fine. Just some occasional vomiting." "Appetite?" "Fine, I guess" The nurse jotted the info down and left the room. "Dana" "Hi Doctor" "How are we today?" "Great, just in for a check-up" "Okay then" He placed a hand behind her neck and gently laid her down on the table. He took both of his hands and firmly pressed his fingers into her abdomen. Scully winced. It was uncomfortable. "Do you know how far along you are?" She shook her head no "Okay then" He went to her chest and checked for lumps or any abnormalities. "Okay Dana you know the drill. All the way down." Scully rolled her eyes and scooted down the table. She put her legs in the stir-ups and the doctor gently parted them. She never knew what to do in situations like this. -what the hell am I supposed to do. I mean, do I close my eyes or stare at the light. They should really put a poster or a picture up there.- She thought to herself. "Okay Dana everything looks great," the doctor said talking off his gloves and writing in her chart. "Any questions Dana?" "Yeah, actually. Um, many as a matter of fact. How far along am I?" "From the feeling of your uterus, I'd say about 6 to 8 weeks. It'll be some more time before we can really tell." "I was told for many years that I could never have children and now I'm pregnant. How could this happen?" "I guess that's why they call them miracles Dana" "Any more questions?" "No, I don't think so." With that he left the room and left Dana to get dressed. "Miracle indeed" she said quietly to herself. FOX MULDER'S APARTMENT 8:30 PM THRUSDAY Scully opened Mulder's door to his apartment. She couldn't walk in- she just stood in the doorway and looked around. Dust had started to accumulate on his furniture and the air was musty. She walked in, closed the door and locked it behind her. A light switch was next to the door and she flipped it on illuminating the room. She went over to the couch and sat down for a moment. She leaned into the arm of it and she could smell him. God she missed that smell. She took the Mexican blanket from the side of the couch and wrapped herself in it. She found instant warmth and comfort. She got up and noticed the fish needed to be fed. She sprinkled some food into her hand and dropped it into the water. Watching the water churn and hearing the bubbles move caused her to become very tired. She hadn't slept well in weeks. She needed to feel safe again. She needed to get some sleep. She walked into his bedroom and turned on the light. The bed wasn't made and there were some clothes on the floor. She dropped the blanket and went to the clothes. She picked up a T-shirt that was lying next to the bed and brought it to her nose. She didn't mean to be obsessed with his smell, but right now, it was the only thing that brought her peace and safety. She took off her shoes and jacket and climbed into bed. She pulled the covers over up to her shoulders. She held the T-shirt like it was one of her childhood blankets. Sleep soon found her and she dreamed. ** Scully awoke on Mulder's couch with a blanket draped over her body. It took her a few moments to figure out where she was but when she did she relaxed and rubbed her eyes and got off of the couch. She ran her fingers through her hair and started to put on her shoes when she noticed a light illuminating Mulder's room. It had grown dark outside and the only light on was of Mulder's bedroom. She went and stood in the doorway. He was absolutely beautiful. She smiled and walked inside towards him. She took off her jacket and placed it besides the bed. The light was on next to him and he had folders lying on his bare stomach. He was wearing pajama bottoms and the way he was leaning back caused the strong ripples of his stomach to show through. His beauty overwhelmed her. She took the files off of his stomach and put them on the floor next to the bed. She took two fingers and kissed them, then placed them on his lips. Her finger caught his bottom lip and dragged it along with it. She braced one arm on the other side of him and gently leaned into him. She brushed her lips very lightly over his. He didn't even twitch. She looked back at him. She brushed her lips across his again but this time he woke up and was startled to find Scully inches from his face. Her eyes brightened and she smiled. She leaned back into another kiss. It took Mulder a second to relax. He responded and leaned into the kiss. He put his hands on her arms and sat up to meet her. They tilted their heads to deepen the kiss. Mulder flicked his tongue over her lips and plunged into her mouth. Her tongue responded and went into his mouth with passionate thrusting and force. After minutes of kissing they broke to find each other breathless. "Scully" It was more of a question but it didn't come out that way. She brought a finger to his lips to quiet him. "Mulder wait. I realized something today that I need to talk to you about. I realized that I'm destined to be with you. I want to be with you. Do you want to be with me?" Mulder didn't know how to respond. "Scully I'm going to ask you this because this is a big deal. Are you sure? You realize that this will change everything, everything for the better?" "Mulder." She paused to gain her thoughts. "Mulder, I've loved you since I can remember and my feelings for you have only grown stronger since. I am more certain of this . . . of us then I have ever been of anything. I want this Mulder. I want you." "Scully you don't know how much I've wanted you since the first day we met. The reason why I asked is because if you let me love you, I will to the highest degree and I won't be able to stop. Call it the Mulder roller coaster." They both smiled and leaned in again for a passionate short kiss. When they broke, Scully stood in front of Mulder and striped her shirt off. A smile escaped from his lips and he leaned back on the bed. She dropped her shirt and worked for her pants next. When she was done, she all of a sudden became very aware of her surroundings and brought her hands up to cover her body. Mulder got off the bed and went for her. He wrapped his arms around her tiny frame and brought her close. She put her arms around his neck and looked into his eyes. His eyes were dark with desire and she could feel his heart beating. "Do you realize what we're about to do Scully?" "Yes. Make love to me Mulder." He bent down and took her lips with his. He moved his mouth to her cheek, then to her neck. She bent her neck to allow him a deeper access. She moaned when his tongues flicked out and he passionately kissed her neck. Her moan caused his erection to become harder. She could feel it pressing up against her stomach. She ran her hands up his spine in the most delicate way causing goose bumps to form on his skin. He shivered under her touch. He broke the kiss started to take her bra off. He started with the straps. He slowly ran each strap down her arms until it couldn't go any further. She watched as his eyes grew larger as he noticed her cleavage peaking out. His hands went to the clasp in the front and undid it. Her breasts fell free and he slid the bra off of her body. He went to her panties next. He bent and kissed her collar bone letting his hands travel down to the elastic band around her panties. He ran his hands over the smooth fabric gently cupping and kneading her ass and coming to the front to cup her hot center. She shuddered. He put his hands inside the silky fabric and touched her every place. He was finally able to take them off. She kicked them to the side with her bra. She stood there completely nude in front of him. "God Scully you're beautiful." She walked past him and got under the covers of the bed. He climbed in after her and kicked off his pants with it. He kissed her slowly, letting the heat build. He moved to her neck and she felt him shaking. She opened her eyes in concern. "Mulder?" He was laughing. "What is it?" She said smiling. "After seven years Scully. Seven fucking years it's finally happening. Can you believe it?" He was shaking but his eyes were brimming over with tears. "It's just . . .it's amazing." They both we laughing but soon stopped when Mulder went back to her neck eliciting a moan from her lips. He looked at her. Her head was thrown back and her lips parted. He went down her body and took one of her nipples into his mouth. She moaned again. "Mulder!" He gently bit and sucked her nipple. His other hand groped the other breast. Her body quivered under his touch. He loved how he was driving him wild. He took his mouth away and moved further down. He placed gentle kisses on her stomach and around her belly button. Scully sensed what was coming next so she looked down at him and watched his movements. He parted her legs and looked up at her. He noticed she was watching him. He brought his mouth down to her thigh and moved his way closer to her hot, wet core. He parted her folds with his fingers and then brought his mouth down to her. Her body arched off the bed from the contact. He ran his tongue over her folds and swollen insides. When he brought his lips to her clit she cried out his name in sheer pleasure. He brought is tongue out and milked her dry. He sucked on her clit and she came hard for him, calling out his name and thrashing on the bed. He lapped her up like a kitten and kissed his way back up to her face. She could taste herself on him and she moaned into the kiss. Scully wrapped her arms around him and flipped them over so Mulder was on his back. She positioned herself and sat up. She put her hair behind her ears and looked down at him. His eyes were dark with desire and face slicked with sweat. She got up on her knees and lowered herself so just the tip of his erection was poking at her entrance. Mulder moaned with that feeling. He brought his hands to her hips and she slowly lowered herself onto him. Both moaned when he was completely inside her. She started moving her hips and his hips joined hers in perfect unison. This was all new to them. She'd never seen Mulder react to anything like that before and now she was watching what her body was doing to him. It made her stomach get butterflies just thinking about it. It actually made her cry. Her love for this man was just to great to contain herself. She threw her had back and let the tears fall from her face. Her thrusts became more wild and urgent. She could feel him coming. Her muscles were tightening around him. She clenched her muscles around him and he came hard. He thrust his hips up and the contact made Scully come again. She collapsed on his body. He took her face in his hands and looked into her eyes. He noticed she was crying. He kissed her forehead and rolled them so her head was resting on his shoulder. He pulled her close and held her tight. "You think that was worth 7 years on built up sexual tension?" Mulder asked. "I think so." Scully said smiling into his chest. "Why do you think it took so long?" He asked her. "I think I was afraid. I didn't want to ruin anything or get really caught up because of the thought of losing you." "I'm not going anywhere Scully" He said. They fell asleep in each other's arms for the first time. ** When Scully awoke, the light of the new day was just shinning through the window of Mulder bedroom. She noticed that she was still clutching Mulder shirt tightly to her chest. The shirt was damp. -Had I been crying last night? - She thought to herself. The only thing she remembered was falling asleep without Mulder lying next to her. She rolled over and placed a hand on his pillow. It didn't feel right with him not being here with her. She couldn't understand the desperation she was feeling. She'd never needed anyone this much - anyone except Mulder. The love that she felt for Mulder was so different than any other she had ever had before. She actually "needed" Mulder and she had never "needed" anyone in her life. She pulled the covers over her and noticed that she had slept in her clothes. It reminded her of Mulder and how he used to always sleep in his clothes. She didn't know why. Was he to damn lazy to change or did he sleep in his clothes to remain the cool-exterior FBI agent like he was? Who knows. Scully put her shoes on and took a look at the apartment. Everything was in its place. -Stop doing this to yourself Dana. Just breathe . . . okay Faith Hill- She said to herself. Scully folded the blanket and put it back on his couch. She left the apartment and headed for work. J. EDGAR HOOVER BUILDING WASHINGTON DC 8:00 AM Okay so she was a little later this morning. It didn't really matter. It's not like she had a partner or anything. Skinner, knowing about her delicate condition, refused to do anything that would put her or the baby in danger. That meant no field cases. If it involved searching for Agent Mulder, he needed to be with her and make sure nothing happens. He owed that much to Mulder. The phone ringing startled Scully out of a daze. "Scully" "Agent Scully I need to see you in my office right away" "What is this regarding sir?" "In my office Agent Scully" "I'm on my way" Scully hung up the phone and walked out of the office. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . "Sir?" Scully said walking inside AD Skinner's office "Yes, Scully take a seat" Scully had no idea what he wanted. His tone scared her a little and she didn't know what to expect. His face grew grim and he looked puzzled. As if he didn't know how to say what he was about to say. "Sir?" Scully asked out of concern "Washington D.C. Officials believe that they've identified Agent Mulder in Georgetown." Skinner looked at the papers in front of him. "I'm anticipating a but sir" "But . . . they need someone to identify the body." "Scully's voice caught in her throat. -Did I just hear what I thought I heard? Itcan'tbehimitcan'tbehimitcan'tbehim. God tell me it's not him!- Tears were forming in her eyes and she wiped them away before they fell. "What do you expect me to do?" She asked hoping beyond hope that she didn't hear the answer that she was dreading. Skinner didn't know how to look at her. He cleared his throat before continuing his next thought. "There's more" Scully slightly turned her head with a surprised yet "what the hell do you mean" look on her face. "Excuse me?" "I need you because . . . because. . ." he cleared his throat again and continued. "because the face has been mutilated and they can't make a facial identification on him." She closed her eyes but disbelief set in. "Then how the hell do they think it's Mulder?" "He was wearing the same clothes that he had on when he was missing . . . he had your gold necklace on Scully. That's what hooked me." "Sir, if I were holding Marilyn Monroe's handbag, would you assume that I slept with JFK?" Skinner looked at her puzzled. "I'll go to the morgue sir, but seriously doubt that it's Agent Mulder you're talking about." MARYLAND STATE MORGUE 10:30 AM Scully walked into the autopsy bay with the other ME. "Are you here to identify the body." "I hope so." Scully said. She stood with her lips pursed and her arms crossed over her chest. "Okay then." The ME started to remove the sheet, but Scully stopped her. "I'd rather do it myself, if that's okay." The ME shook her head. "Whatever. Fine by me. Check with me when you're finished. Scully turned back to the body and took a deep breath. She placed a hand on the sheet and started to gently, slowly move it down the body. What she saw shocked her more than anything she'd ever seen. His face was sewn together like that of the alien rebels. She kept moving it further until only his feet where hidden. Just from seeing him there, she realized that it wasn't Mulder. She'd seen his body enough times to know what was Mulder and what wasn't. She noticed the small necklace placed around his neck and she removed it. It was hers. She held it in her hands and quietly sobbed. She put the necklace in her pocket and left the room. "It's not him" she said to the ME as she stormed out of the morgue not even turning to address it to her. She ran back to her car and once she was inside, she cried and cried. The fear that she had when Skinner told her that it could've been Mulder almost caused her to die on the spot. She took the necklace out and held it up to her eyes. Just looking at it made her heart jump. The necklace came back to her, but Mulder didn't. What if he was dead? Why did they send this to me? She couldn't get those thoughts out of her mind. She didn't know how to handle it. She put it back in her pocket and drove home. She couldn't go back to work right now. Part 5: Almost gone DANA SCULLY'S APARTMENT 12:00 PM FRIDAY Scully walked into her apartment and set her things down. She walked into her bedroom and climbed into bed, not caring about the clothes she was wearing. - This is going to be my new habit- she thought to herself. This was definitely taking a toll on her life. She didn't know how much of this she could take. She never realized how much that would actually hurt her. The pain was unbearable to handle. Just thinking about it was making her nauseated. She rolled over to her side and took a couple of deep breaths. It didn't leave. She felt the wave take her over and she made it just in time to empty her stomach into the toilet. When she got up she took off her clothes and started the water to take a bath. Her stomach was starting to get hard and a little pooch was starting to show. Not enough to change anything but just enough to make her feel like she is finally pregnant. She let the water fill up around her and closed her eyes to relax. She could feel the stress leaving her body. After about 20 minutes, she stood up and pulled the plug. When she got up, a wave of dizziness took her over and she noticed the water was turning a pale pink. Her eyes shot wide open and she reached between her legs. Blood. It was trailing down her legs and she suddenly felt a sharp pain in her stomach. -Oh God, no. Please don't let this happen. Ohgodohgodohgodohgodohgod!!!!- She climbed out and called for an ambulance. She sat with a towel between her legs squeezing the pain away. GEORGETOWN MEMORIAL MEDICAL CENTER GEORGETOWN, MARYLAND 1:30 PM "36 year old female. Complained of stomach cramps and vaginal bleeding. 6-8 weeks pregnant." The paramedic told the doctor when Scully was rushed into the ER. Her eyes were drifting shut and she had an air mask on her face. "Do you know your name?" The doctor yelled when they placed her on the table. "Scully. Dana Scully" "Dana, do you know what happened?" "I was taking a bath and then I noticed I was bleeding" Scully's eyes started to tear. She knew what the pain and bleeding meant. She let out a moan when another round of the pain came over her again. "Okay, we're going to need an ultrasound and get some blood work on her STAT." Nurses and doctors started running around the room starting IV's and taking blood from her. They folded back the blanket from her lower half and did the external ultrasound on her. Scully closed her eyes and went through the pain. "There it is." The doctor yelled to the room Scully's eyes shot wide open and looked at the screen "And there's the heartbeat . . . Dana, you're going to be fine. Your baby's going to be fine." Scully put her hands over her face and stated crying. 2 hours later. Assistant Director Skinner walked into Scully's hospital room. "Hi" she said. "How's everything?" He asked with complete concern on his face. "Everything's going to be fine. I just need to take it slow." She smiled at him and he smiled back. "Agent, I'm going to recommend that you take some time off. This didn't happen for nothing. You can't keep worrying yourself. I'm not saying to stop looking, I'm just saying that you need to take it easy and go slow." "Sir, with all due respect I'd be more stressed if I wasn't at work. I need something to place my back up against. I'll be fine. I promise sir. You have my permission to take me down if I don't." They smiled at each other. He took her hand for a brief moment and then got up and left the room. Scully didn't have her journal with her so she asked the nurse for a pad of paper and pen. Mulder, Today was one of the worst days I've ever been through. I got a call from a morgue to come down and identify your body. It wasn't you, but I couldn't stop myself from thinking that it was. He had your cross Mulder. Your cross. I gave that to you so you could give it back to me when you return. Now, however, I feel like you're never coming back to me. That cross gave me hope, but now I have nothing. I almost had nothing. Mulder, today I almost lost the baby. Our baby. I was going through the steps of a miscarriage and I thought I was going to lose the baby. The doctors said that I didn't and that I just needed to take it slow for the next 7 months. I lost some amniotic fluid, but not enough to really harm the baby. I'm sitting here in the hospital, alone. I wish you were here today with me. I needed your strength to get me through this. I saw our baby for the first time Mulder. There wasn't much but it was there with a heart beat, alive and well. It was so amazing to see the life that we created together on screen. To see the life that is growing inside me and living off my warmth and comfort. I'm comforting the baby, but who's comforting me? I need you Mulder. I don't know how many times I can say it, but I do. You're all I have left that is certain. Scully ** Mulder awoke to the sound of the drill over his head. -Oh God, not again- He'd been here for months and everyday they'd done tests and more tests. His body lay cold against a hard table. He tried to scream but nothing came out. He could see faces, faces wearing masks and surgical gear. He felt needles dig into his skin and he closed his eyes in pain. Suddenly everything stopped and went black. The men left and the pain stopped but everything became very clear. His mind was able to hear things like he was able to do earlier that year. He could hear voices, but the one that stuck out in his mind the most was Scully's. All the other voices were drowned out except Scully's. He could hear her, she was talking to him. -How does she know?- He asked himself. He listened to her words to him. "Mulder, today I almost lost the baby. Our baby. I was going through the steps of a miscarriage and I thought I was going to lose the baby. . . I wish you were here today with me. I needed your strength to get me through this. I saw our baby for the first time Mulder." -Oh my God, she's pregnant . . . and I'm not there.- He started crying. It was bad enough that she had to go through the pain and anguish of him not being there but it's even worse that now she had to go through her pregnancy alone. -I'm so sorry Scully. I'm so sorry. Scully, I wish I could be there with you. I wish I could hold you and tell you that everything is going to be all right, but you know that I can't. You have to believe me Scully that I will be there for our child. You have to know that I love you and our child and will do all in my power to make it better for you both. You don't know how much I would give just to be able to see you again, if only for a moment. I'll come back to you Scully, I promise.- His eyes grew heavy and he fell asleep. ** The near miscarriage had a large toll on Scully. Weeks went by with no word on Mulder or where he was. Her stomach had grown while he was away and definitely had become more rounded. It was becoming more difficult to hide her pregnancy at work. She tried to stay out of plain view as much as possible now. Her shirts were worn outside her pants and her jacket barely fit anymore. Skinner kept his promise to Mulder and Scully about keeping her safe and not letting anything happen to her or the baby. Actually, he let her do nothing. He kept her in the office all day working on background checks and various other materials. Most of her time, however, was spent on the internet searching for anything that might help her in finding Mulder. Bill had grown used to the fact that her baby sister was pregnant. He just realized that this made her happy and he accepted that. Her mother was a constant help. They tried to have lunch together at least once a week. Seeing her family made Mulder's disappearance more bearable. She tried to write to Mulder every day but she was so tired when she came home that it was difficult. The doctor kept her on drugs that relaxed her. The near loss of her child had been a result of too much stress and emotion brought on by Mulder's disappearance. The nights had grown lonelier lately and Mulder hadn't been there to discover the feeling of their child's first movement. Her doctor's appointment was coming up again, but this time, due to the high-risk and age, she was going to have an amnion satisces and ultra sound. OFFICE OF DR. WEBBER OBGYN GEORGETOWN MARYLAND 12:00 PM WEDNESDAY "Okay Dana, the doctor will see you now." Scully stood up and went into the doctor's office. She needed to sign the necessary forms before they could proceed. "Do you have any questions before we begin Dana?" "No, just wanted to make sure that you were going to do a full genetic work-up when you get the information." "Yes, Dana we are." They walked into the examining room and he left her to get undressed. When the doctor came back in, he was holding an examining tray. "Okay Dana lay down." He lifted her gown and measured her abdomen from her pelvic bone to the top of her uterus. "16 centimeters. Right on the dot. You're about 4 months Dana. Okay, lets get this thing going." He turned on the ultrasound machine and prepped her belly with the goo. Then he went and turned off the lights so the screen could be easily seen. He turned the monitor towards her and he placed the device on her belly. "I have to see where there's an opening in the sack so I can put the needle there." He paused a moment moving the device around her belly. "Okay, that's the head . . .and that's the arm . . .and that's the leg. Do you want to know the sex Dana?" She shot her head from the screen and shook her head no. She wasn't going to know until Mulder knew. That much she could give him. "But could you write it down so I could look if I wanted to." The doctor nodded and went back to the screen. He called the nurse in and she held down the device so he could slip the needle in. He stuck the needle in her stomach and drew out the fluid. "Nice and clear. That's how we like it." He gave the needle to the nurse and she left with it. He wiped the goo from her stomach and pulled her gown back down. He turned on the lights and came to sit beside her. "Dana, everything is perfect Dana. No abnormalities from I can see." Tears started to form in her eyes. "Here's you baby's first picture. You're going to have a healthy beautiful baby Dana. Congratulations." He got up and handed her the envelope with the identity of her child inside. On the way home, all she kept thinking about was how she was finally going to be able to have a chance at a normal life. That's all she ever wanted. Emily had been a shame, an emotional shame to say the least. She looked over at the photo lying next to the envelope on the seat next to her. She could just see it now. ^^She, Mulder and the baby all living together in suburbia bliss. No more conspiracies, no more aliens, no more having to live a lie or tell them for that matter. She owed that much to her child. ^^ When she got back to the Hoover building, she put it inside her jacket along with the envelope. She walked down to her office with the biggest smile on her face, but that faded and was replaced by fear when she saw who was standing in her office. "Krycek, what the hell are you doing here?" "Scully, I brought him here. He says that he had information on Mulder." Skinner said to her standing beside Krycek. "So. . ." She started. "He's going to be returned." "When, where?" Her eyes grew large and walked over to Krycek. "They're done with him. I don't know exactly when but he's coming." "Well. . . that's just great Krycek. I'm so glad you could come down here and tell me nothing." She went and sat in her chair. "Look I thought that this would help you considering . . ." he gestured to her stomach. She immediately placed a protective hand over it. "What? How'd you know?" "Are you kidding? THEY'VE been planning this for years. Ever since Antarctica and Cassandra Spender disappeared. They realized that if two people could become immune, why create one, when millions could be produced just by simple procreation. The vaccine becomes a part of your genetic work-up, so if two people, who were immune, had a child, that child would be the savior to all things. Yours is the first." Scully shot back the sobs rising in her throat. "Oh God." She choked and sobbed. "But the doctors said . . ." He cut her off. "You don't get it do you? Your baby is not an alien-human hybrid, it's just the first of the new form to defeat the colonization." She wiped away the tears in her eyes. "What's going to happen to my child?" "Hopefully nothing. That's the key. Your child isn't an alien, so it really doesn't pose a threat, but it is still immune. . ." "Please leave." She whispered. Both of them left without saying another word. -God what now. First I can't explain how I got pregnant, then my best friend and lover is taken from me. Then, I almost lose my child and now . . . and now my belief in suburbia is gone. I will have to live in fear with my child.- She walked over to door, shut it and locked it. She turned back around and fell to the floor sobbing. ** "I told you this would only make her upset." Skinner said to Krycek as they entered the elevator up to his office. "She needs to know. She needs to know what this means." Krycek said to him. "She's already going through hell with Mulder being gone and being alone through all of this and now you have to trouble her with this." "Would you rather the baby be hurt if she didn't know? . . . Look, I'm helping her. Nothing should happen to her or the baby if we can keep this a secret." "Should happen?" "Mulder's coming back. When he comes back, we'll have answers. But until then, we just have to wait." "You do realize that you're going to have to give her the details on her child. She's going to have a lot of questions when the emotions subside." ** Scully got up off the floor and went to her desk. She was still crying but she had no energy left to weep. She couldn't believe what Krycek had just told her. Why did this have to happen to her child? Why now? When everything is already so confusing? She needed to get her emotions out. Mulder, I never thought I would be saying this to you. I never thought that this would happen to us. I've always wanted a "real" life Mulder; you know that. I've wanted a white house with a picket fence and 2.5 kids with a dog and . . . everything that I should want at this time in my life. But now I realize that I will never have that, even if you do come back. We may have the objects, but it's all superficial. We will once again be living a lie and fighting for our lives for the rest of them. I can't begin to describe what I'm feeling right now. What was the most joyous day of my life has turned into the worst. I saw our child on screen again today and even got a picture to take home. The doctor told me that our child was going to be healthy and everything would be fine. If I had known what I found out 30 minutes later, I would never have even put myself through it. I found Krycek and Skinner inside our office when I returned. Krycek told me that . . . that something was wrong with our child. That is has to do with the vaccine and the conspiracy. Mulder, you and I are both immune to the virus, and that immunity has become a part of our DNA. THEY believed that if two people who were immune were to simply procreate, their child would be immune too. Mulder, our child is the first. Krycek said that it would be the savior to all things - The third generation of the project that is immune. Mulder I'm scared. I don't want to have to live in fear for my child - our child. I don't want to have to trust no one, when now I realize I'll have to. I don't know if I'll be able to do this Mulder, especially if you're not here with me. God, I can only take so much more of this Mulder. I really need you here, here with me and our child. I was offered the chance to know our child's identity today, Mulder. He asked me, and I told him no, because I wanted to see it with you. But now I wonder if I should see. I want to know Mulder. I want to put it in my mind. I dream Mulder, I dream all the time. I dream that you, me and the baby are all playing outside in the front yard of our home. Living in no fear, fear of aliens or conspiracies. Breathing in fresh air, not air filled with smoke. I really thought that dream would come true, or at least part of it, but no I understand that I will never have that. As long as I have you and our child, I will have everything I need. Right now I feel like I have nothing. Nothing Mulder. It's the worst feeling in the world. Scully Scully took the envelope out of her pocket and looked at it. It was a simple, plain envelope with a piece of paper folded many times inside. She fiddled with the envelope before making up her mind. She tore the end off the side of the envelope and slid the paper out. It was folded many times so that you couldn't cheat. She unfolded the paper very slowly, her heart beating quickly in her chest. When the paper was fully unfolded, she brought it up to her eyes and read what it said: IT'S A BOY. Her eyes filled with tears and she put the paper down. She couldn't believe it. She could not believe what she just saw. She brought it back up again to make sure what she was seeing. She bit her lower lip and looked up at the ceiling. She's going to have a boy. Her son. Mulder's son. Their son. Her emotions were distracted by the ringing of the phone. She sniffed her nose and wiped her eyes. "Scully." "Scully don't hang up the phone." "What do you want Krycek?" She wasn't emotional any more, just angry, very angry. "You have to understand the details of this Dana. You're making more out this than it really is." "Fuck you Krycek, don't tell me what I'm making more of. This is my child!" "Okay, but you have to understand." "What . . ." "Nothing will happen to your child as long as Mulder is returned. They already have your DNA and Mulder's. As far as THEY now, you're still unable to have children. This means nothing to THEM. It only means something to evolution. That's all." "How am I supposed to believe you Krycek. To me, you are still a liar and a murderer." "I have no means to prove otherwise. You can believe this or not. I wanted to tell you. You needed to know." "Krycek, I swear to you God, if you are fucking with me in any way . . .so help me God." "Mulder and the baby are the key to it all. Once Mulder is returned, everything will be done. It'll be fine." He hung up the phone. Did she just hear what she thought she heard? Did Krycek just tell her that everything was going to be fine once Mulder came back? What the hell was she supposed to do until then? She got up and ran to the elevator. ** "Sir, can I see you?" "Sure, Agent Scully come in." "Sir, I need to know what you know about this situation." Skinner got up and closed the door to his office. "Agent Scully I don't know if this is the time or the place." "Sir, I don't really give a fuck right now. My child's life might be at stake and you're not helping me." He wrote her a slip of paper and handed it to her when he shook her hand to go. "Agent my time is filled right now. I'm sorry I can't help you." She noticed the note and left the room. When she got out into the hall she opened the note and read what it said. I'LL CALL YOU TONIGHT AT HOME She put the note in her pocket and went back down to her office. DANA SCULLY APARTMENT 7:30 PM Scully walked into her apartment a little more cautiously than normal. She placed her things down and went to make dinner. She put the pasta in the pan and started cutting the tomatoes when the phone rang. "Hello?" "Scully it's Skinner." "Sir . . ." she felt relieved. "I couldn't tell you in my office. It might not be safe. Is it okay if I come over? This line might not be safe." "Ah . . . sure, yeah that's okay." "I'll be right over." She placed some more pasta in the pan and finished with the tomatoes. She heard a knock at the door and went to answer it. She checked the peep hole, and then answered the door. "Hi" she breathed and moved to the side to let him in. He smiled sheepishly and entered her apartment taking off his coat. "Have a seat" she said and walked into the kitchen. She turned off the stove and came back to sit down next to him on the sofa. She rotated her body so she was facing him. "He's right you know." He finally said. "Who's right?" "Krycek." "But how sir?" "Nothing will happen to the baby. It's just a matter of evolution like he said. It's not about aliens or anything. It's actually a good thing." "Then why tell me at all if there's not risk?" "You had to know. I made him tell you because you had the right to know. It's your child after all." "So, this is a good thing?" She asked, feeling the tears well up in her eyes. "Yes. It's just another step in evolution. That's all it is. Something new. Nothing will happen to the baby. I promise you that." She smiled at him and then wrapped her arms around him. At first he was hesitant but then relaxed into the embrace. "Thank you." She said. "Sir, there's something else. Something good I guess. I have the first sonogram picture of the baby, do you want to see it?" He nodded his head yes and she got up to go retrieve the picture. She handed him the picture and his eyes lit up when he saw it. She sat with one leg turned under her and an elbow bracing her head on the couch. "It's a boy" she said. For the first time, she saw him smile and he started laughing. "Mulder would be so proud." He told her. "I know." Part 6: The Time is Near 5 months later . . . The tests have stopped now. They've stopped for months. Everything is bright, so bright. I hear voices, not the kind in my head, just normal voices. I hear Teresa and Billy and HIM. Teresa and Billy are to talking to HIM. They're talking about bringing us back. They're going to bring us home. I have no clear recollection of what's happened to me. I have no doubt that my memories will be taken from me but for right now, I treasure them. For all I know it could have been 3 days or even 3 years since I've been gone. Oh God, 3 years. What if I did miss three years? Scully, and the baby. I would have missed everything. The pregnancy, the birth, first steps, first words . . . everything. The light is dimming in the room and my eyes are feeling heavy. ** Scully opened her eyes and her senses quickly came to her. She heard the phone ringing and reached her arm out to grab the phone. "Hello?" she yawned into the phone. "Dana honey, Dana are you all right?" "Mom, why are calling so early?" "Dana . . . it's noon. Are you feeling okay?" She sat up in bed, or at least tried to. She was over nine months pregnant. "Uhm . . . yeah, I'm fine. I just um . . . I have to use the bathroom mom. Come over when you want. I have to be at the hospital by 11:00 tonight." "Okay then, I'll come over later Dana. We have a lot to talk about." "Yes mom, yes we do." She hung up the phone and waddled into the bathroom. When she returned, she went into her spare room, now the baby's room and took a look around. The walls were white but the way the sun was shinning through the windows painted the room in a beautiful shade of yellows and oranges. There was an oak dresser and changing table. The dresser and changing table were lined with small stuffed animals. The crib was at the far wall. The same shade of wood as the other pieces of furniture. The bedding was already in place. A pattern of sailboats and such. The background was white and faintly imprinted were little blue and red sail boats. She ran her hand over the crib and then went to sit at the rocking chair. She gently rocked and placed her hands on her predominately swollen belly. The closet door was open and she could see everything ready to go. Clothes were hanging up on the rack. She realized that her son has more clothes that she did and he wasn't even born yet. Blankets were folded on the shelf. Everything was in it's place. Today was the big day. Tonight or early tomorrow morning, however one wants to word it, she was going to be induced. She was already a week late and incredibly uncomfortable. She must have walked through this room a million times rearranging things, cleaning and washing everything. Her mom was going to come over today and clean her house for her while she rested and packed for the hospital. DANA SCULLY'S APARTMENT FEBRUARY 15, 2001 1:30 PM There was a knock at the door and Scully went to answer it. "Hi mom" she said. "Dana" her mother said as she tried to put her arms around her. "Sweetie, you really need your rest. You should be in bed." "I know mom, I know. But I feel like there's so much to do" she said as she walked into the kitchen and sat down. "I just feel like it's going by so quickly and I don't have time. I mean, we still have to call the hospital and confirm, plus the Father at the church, and the Bureau . . ." "Dana, stop. All you need to worry about right now is packing and resting, nothing else. Humor me Dana, please." Scully got up and walked into her bedroom and rolled into bed. She grabbed her journal from her stand and started to write. Mulder, Today's the day Mulder. Today's the last day that I'll be pregnant with our son. Tomorrow I will see his face and meet him for the first time. The feeling is so incredible Mulder, I can't quite describe it. It's an amazing feeling to know that tomorrow I'm going to be a mother and you a father. There's so much to do that I'm a little overwhelmed right now. The room looks beautiful, I wish you were here to see it. As I sit here looking at the bassinet next to my bed, I realize just what you've missed. But, it's like you never missed anything at all. I've written to whenever I could. I can't wait for you to come home and meet our son. Scully By 4 o'clock that afternoon, her house was clean and she was ready to go. Her mother did everything that she promised. She was nervous and spent her remainder of the day in the rocking chair thinking . . . thinking about Mulder, thinking about their times together. She closed her eyes and relaxed, letting her memories take over. ** Mulder walked into Scully's apartment and looked around. No one was home. "Scully?" No answer. He started looking around her apartment, checking every room. He stopped when he noticed her in her bathroom with the door closed, the lights off and candles lit. Her eyes were closed and her arms hanging outside the tub. He quietly walked back out, careful to not disturb her. He took his clothes off in her room and then quietly walked back into the bathroom. He knelt down beside her and placed a hand on her arm. She jumped 5 feet into the air. "Jesus Mulder" "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." "What are you doing here?" "I wanted to give you a bath." "What?" "Is there any room in there Scully?" Before she could protest, he slipped in front of her, facing her. "Mulder?" He took her foot in his hands and gently started kneading it. He slowly moved his hand up farther till it was just above the apex of her thighs. The candles illuminated the room and gave off a soft glow on both of their skins. The bubbles were started to descend and he could make out two pink nipples poking through the water. Her body urged him further. She slowly opened her thighs and urged him forward. He leaned forward and pulled her up to meet him. They were face to face now in her bathtub. He cupped her face with his hands and gently started placing soft kisses on her face and neck. She ran her hands down his soapy exterior. Then, he stood up and got out of the tub. She stood up and followed. He took a large towel from her towel rack and started to dry her off with it. He wrapped her in one and then dried himself off with the other. He took the towel from her and let it drop to the floor. His hands automatically went to her breasts. He cupped them and weighed them. He brushed his thumbs over her nipples eliciting a moan from her lips. He watched her head drop back and eyes close shut. He bent forward and started kissing her neck and collar bone. He pulled away from her and took her face with his hands. He leaned down and kissed her passionately. Their tongues brushed against each other's and traced each other's mouths. Their arms intertwined and they held each other close. Mulder pulled both of their bodies down and soon he was lying on top of her on her cold bathroom floor. He braced himself on top of her and in one swift motion, he guided himself into her and they started moving in perfect sync. She urged him on and he moved quicker until they both came so hard, they felt like complete puddy. ** A hand on her shoulder startled her from her dream. "Dana, it's time to go." -God, have I been asleep that long?- she though. The room had grown darker and the sky was black outside. She suddenly felt anxious and nervous. She took a deep breath and using he mother as a brace, she got off the chair and walked towards the door. She took one last look around before she left. Her life was forever going to change now. Part 7: Miracles Scully and her mother walked through the doors leading them into the hospital. "Hi, I'm Dana Scully, I'm scheduled to start Pitocin at 12:00." "Yes, Ms. Scully, Nurse Baxter will take you to labor and delivery." Scully and her mother followed the nurse to Labor and Delivery room #3. Scully changed into a gown and climbed into bed. The nurse took her blood and BP and then a saline IV was inserted before the actual Pitocin IV was. It took Scully a couple of hours to finally feel the pain shooting through her stomach. She didn't show the pain because she'd felt worse but she was getting very uncomfortable. The nurse gave her the green light to get up and walk around. Walking helped her. There was a rocking chair in the corner and she felt comfortable in that for a while. 9 hours later . . . "SON OF A BITCH!!!!!!" she screamed in pain. "Dana, you need to breathe" the nurse told her rubbing her ankle that was pocking out of the sheet. "Don't tell me to fucking breathe. I'm so tired. I need the epiderall. Please." She started crying. "I'm just so tired." Her mother took her hand and held it. "Is she able to have that?" her mother asked with concern in her eyes. "Dana, I'm going to check you now to see if you're dilated enough to have one okay?" The nurse checked her progress. "Dana, you're about 5 to 6 centimeters so far. That's really good. I'll call the doctor." The nurse left and called for the anesthesiologist and Dr. Webber. About 15 minutes later, they both came in. They prepared her for the epiderall and placed the tube in her spine. "Dana, this is going to take about 10 minutes for it to start working okay?" About 15 minutes later, Scully was fast asleep and her mother was able to rest too. The doctor let her rest and came back in a couple of hours later to check her progress. "Dana, wake up, I have to check you." "What? Oh okay." She rolled over. "Hey Dana guess what? You're done." "I'm done?" she looked at him, not believing him. "Nurse, can you call surgery and tell them we'll be coming in with Ms. Scully in few minutes?" He turned back to her. "Just relax Dana, you're going to have a baby in a few minutes." He left and joined the nurse. Her mother came and sat down next to her. "Dana, how do you feel?" her mother said stroking her leg. "Anxious, nervous, scared." She started crying, She was more afraid then she'd ever been in her entire life. She was bringing a life into the world. What hurt her the most was the Mulder wasn't here to do it with her. "I miss him Mom. I wish he was here." She said. "I know honey, I know." A few minutes later, the doctor came back in. They put the guard rails up and wheeled her out of the room. OR GEORGETOWN MEMORIAL HOSPITAL 12:00 PM FEBRUARY 16, 2001 Dana Scully lay on a cold, hard table. A drape came up covering her face and shielding her from her stomach and the surgery that take place before her. Tubes and blankets covered her body and to her left, she saw the warming bed ready for her son. She could feel the pressure created by the tugging and pulling the doctors and nurses were doing. Soon, she noticed the doctors and nurses rustling around and she knew that it was almost time. The nurse behind her held up a mirror and she saw her son be born into this world. She was in awe. His body left her and once the cord was cut, he let out a loud wail. "Oh my God" her eyes were large and she couldn't believe it. The doctor handed the baby over to the nurse and they cleaned him and wrapped him in a warm blanket. The nurse brought him over to her and held him up so she could see him. His eyes were fighting to stay open, but he couldn't do it. She started laughing and crying at the same time. She couldn't believe that this was her child. Hers and Mulder's. This was the child that was growing inside her for the past 9 months. He was beautiful. The nurse backed away and took him back away to the pediatrician waiting at the table. 3 hours later . . . Scully was sitting up in the bed. She was sore but when the nurse brought the baby in, all pain left her. He was all wrapped up in a hospital blanket. The nurse handed her the clip board and she signed the necessary papers. The baby was finally hers. The nurse picked him up and handed him to her. Her mother was asleep and she didn't want to disturb her. She wanted this time alone with her son. She held the baby in her arms for the first time. It was the most incredible feeling she'd ever had. An instant love for her son. He opened his eyes at her and she smiled down at him. Her eyes watering in the process. She brought his head to her lips. His skin was so soft and smelled sweet. The nurse came back in about 30 minutes later and told her that it was time to feed him. The nurse instructed her on how to breast feed and soon her son was latched on her breast. Her mother woke up to find her daughter nursing her son. She walked over to the foot of the bed and sat down. When she said that the most amazing feeling was his skin, she was wrong, it was the feeling of feeding him. Just watching him made her love him even more. She was in absolute awe of him. He looked like Mulder when he slept. He even had his pouty bottom lip. She studied him while he slept. A mother's right. -My eyes, his ears, my nose, his lips, his hands, but my feet.- He was beautiful Pale white skin and a head full of brown hair. -God even his lips have the same color. That pale pink that brings out the hazel in his eyes- That night, she fought sleep in order to stay awake and watch her son sleep. He woke three times and she was ready for all. By morning, her mother took over and she slept. She dreamed about the miracle that was just brought into this world. Part 8:Home SCULLY'S APARTMENT FEBRUARY 20, 2001 10:30 AM Scully and her mother brought Joseph William Mulder home from the hospital. He slept most of the time. When they walked inside, they set his carrier on the couch and put the bag and everything on the kitchen table. Scully was going slowly. She was still recovering and should be in bed, but she could take the pain and it was good for her to walk around. After she put the bags and everything on the table, she went back into the living room to check on Joey. She decided to call him that. She'd always liked Joey as a name. He was sound asleep. His body was so cute and sweet. She just wanted to pick him up and hold him and love him to death but she let him sleep. His head was in a blue baby beanie cap and matching blue newborn pajamas with little yellow ducks on them. His body had a white receiving blanket tucked all around him. She wanted to protect him from the cold. Her mother unpacked everything and put them in the room. Once she was done, she picked up Joseph and gently carried him into her room and put him in her bed. His body curved to hers and he rested his head on the crook of her neck. He was so sweet. She went out into the living room and told her mother that she was going to take a nap. "Mom, why don't you just go home. You look really tired and he's sleeping now. I'll be fine. You can come over later if you want." Her mother was reluctant but finally decided to go home, take a shower and fall asleep. Scully walked back into her room and climbed into the bed next to her son. She kept a hand on his stomach to make sure he didn't stop breathing. She watched him for a while and then went into a sleep with him. ** "Where the hell am I? Wait . . . I know where I am. I'm, I'm home. Oh my God, I'm home." Mulder looked around. His apartment looked the same, but cleaner. No one was here. When he went into his bedroom and when he saw the bed he automatically remembered. "Scully!" He ran out of his apartment and got a cab to Georgetown. He didn't remember anything that happened to him, nor did he care, he just wanted to get to her. The cab pulled in front of her apartment and he got out. He ran through her hall 'till he reached her door. His heart was beating in his chest. He heard something through the door, a faint crying. He stood outside the door and waited for the crying the stop. "Oh my god" was all he could breathe at the time. A smile came to his face and he finally knocked on her door. "Mom, come on in." she said. She sat on the couch and started nursing. The door opened, but it wasn't her mother. Instead Mulder walked through. She didn't really notice until she didn't hear anything. When she saw him, her mouth dropped and her eyes grew extremely large. She wanted to get up but the baby in her arms and the strength in her legs prevented her from that. He looked basically the same, thinner but the same. He bent down and put a hand on her knee. She couldn't say anything, she was completely speechless. When the baby fell asleep at her breast she released him and went into her room and placed him in the bassinet. When she came back out she ran to his arms. "Oh my God. Oh my god!" she couldn't stop saying that. He held her tight to his body and she ran her fingers in his hair. She started crying. She didn't want to let him go. "Mulder, oh God!" she was so overcome with emotion. He was back. He was back. She pulled back from him and looked into his eyes. They were glistening with tears. She smiled up at him and he smiled back. She got on her tip toes and kissed him. The kiss turned from chaste to passionate. She'd thought she remembered his kisses, but obviously, she didn't. They were nothing like she remembered. The crying coming from the next room broke the kiss. She broke it and they held each other for a few seconds, forehead to forehead. She broke it and looked into his eyes. "Mulder . . . I need to tell you something." She began, but he broke in. "I know Scully. I know." She turned around and went into the room and brought Joey out for him. She wrapped him in a blanket. His eyes were closed and he placed the pacifier in his mouth to quiet him for the moment. When she brought him out, his eyes got brighter and his mouth turned into a smile. She handed Joey to Mulder and he completely stopped being fussy. Mulder took him and walked over to the couch. He didn't know how long his knees could handle standing up. He sat down and could do nothing more than look at his son. Their eyes met and he felt the whole world stopped at that one moment. His eyes were the deepest blue he'd ever seen. He looked up at Scully and both had tears in their eyes. His mouth opened to say something but nothing came out. Instead he looked back down at his son who was finding sleep in his arms. Once he was asleep, Mulder turned to Scully and started talking. "Scully, I, I don't know what to say." He looked down. "Mulder." Her eyes pleaded with him and he took her hand in his. "I feel . . . I'm so sorry Scully." She started crying. "Mulder . . . you can't blame yourself. I'm fine, the baby's fine. Nothing matters right now. The only thing that matters is that you're home. And safe." He nodded and got up to put the baby down. She followed him into her bedroom. He placed the baby down and turned to Scully. He wrapped her arms around him and cried into his shoulder. "You don't know how much I've missed holding you Scully." He said into her hair. "I was so afraid Mulder. I was afraid that you'd never come back. I missed you so much Mulder." They parted and sat on the bed together. He looked over at the bassinet and his sleeping son. Just looking at him brought tears to his eyes. Tears of happiness and tears on sadness. "I'm so sorry Scully. If I'd known . . ." "Mulder don't. I didn't even know. I thought that maybe I was getting sick again, but it wasn't the cancer, it was him." She motioned to their son. "I just feel like I've missed so much." "You haven't missed anything Mulder." She got up and walked over to her bed-side table. She picked up the journal and gave it to him. "I've had this since the first week you were gone. I've written in it almost every day. You were always with me Mulder." She handed him the journal. "Mulder we have to take you to the hospital. We need to see what's wrong." He shook his head and went to stand over the bassinet. "No, not now. I want to be here. I don't want to leave." "Mulder, please. We don't know what they did to you. We need to make sure you're okay." "Scully, I just want to be with you right now. I don't want to leave him Scully. I've just met him." He got on his knees and placed his hand on his son's stomach. She was reluctant but finally agreed. 10:30 PM After they'd eaten and gone through most of the journal, Scully was beat and Mulder had nothing but energy. He read her journal, mostly crying at parts. She filled him in over the past 7 months and what happened with her. He wanted to know every detail. She showed him the sonogram pictures and every test that was ever run on her. She took him into the bedroom that would become Joey's in a few weeks. He walked around and put his hands over everything. The lamp in the room cast a soft glow over everything. He went over to the rocking chair and sat down. "God Scully, I can't believe this happened." "Why?" "Well, it's just so amazing you know? To think that you couldn't have children because of me and now you have a child . . . because of me." She smiled and got down to her knees in front of him. "I'm going to go to bed Mulder. I'm tired. Come in when you're ready." He nodded and she got up. She lifted his head with her hands and placed a kiss on his mouth. "I'm glad you're home Mulder." And she left out the room. Once she left, he got up and walked around the room. He was still in awe. When he left, he was hurting because he was leaving her alone and possibly sick, but when he came back, he had a son and his relationship couldn't be any stronger. A few hours later he went into her bedroom and saw she had laid out some sweats for him to wear. He picked them up and went into the bathroom to put them on. He went over to the baby and looked down. The baby's eyes were open and when Joey noticed someone, he started to get fussy. Mulder picked him up and held him close to his chest. He went and sat down in the large chair in her room. He held the baby in the moonlight and looked out the window. He held the baby in the crook of his arm and laid back against the chair. About 15 minutes later, Joey woke up and started crying. When he let out a large cry, Scully woke up and went to him. She didn't notice Mulder at first, but when she did, he handed the baby over to her. She brought her face down to him and cooed for a while. She walked over to the bed and climbed into it. Mulder stood up and sat on the edge next to her. She lifted her shirt and nursed to her son to the astonishment of Mulder. He watched her as she watched their son. At first Joey looked directly into Scully eyes and she played with his hand. Joey's eyes started to droop and soon he was fast asleep. She felt his mouth go still. When she got up to go put him back down, Mulder stilled her. "Let him sleep with us tonight." She smiled and placed him in between the two of them. They slept on their sides, facing their son and watched him sleep. Their hands found each other's on Joey's stomach. Mulder thumb brushed over hers. She smiled at him and they fell asleep, hands entwined.