From: spkyteach@aol.com
Date: Wed, 17 Jan 2001 07:19:53 EST
Subject: xfc: Whole
Source: xfc

Title: Whole
Author: Spookyteacher
Rating: G 
Category: V, A
Subcategory: MSR
Spoilers: US8
Archive: Spooky Awards, Epehemeral, HOF are okay. I've already sent it to 
Gossamer via xfc-atxc. All other site managers who want to archive it-- 
please just e-mail where you have it. I want to visit your very tasteful 
sites!
Summary: Scully's thoughts post-Patience and Roadrunners
Notes: My other stories can be found at my archive, 
http://www.geocities.com/spookyteacher (Spookyteacher's Classroom X). 
Disclaimer: Mulder, Scully, the Lone Gunmen, Skinner, Krycek, and the Smoking 
Man, et al, are the creative property of Chris Carter, Ten Thirteen 
Productions, and Fox Television. You guys have written them so well I can't 
resist having a go at it myself. I really am a classroom teacher, which is 
synonymous with POOR. Hint, hint...


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Whole
by Spookyteacher
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MULDER!

I hope screaming your name will bring some part of you back to me.

I am so lost here.

I am trying. 
Trying so hard to make this work...
Trying to believe...
But I cannot be you and me.

I don't know how you did it all these years.
How did you play the role of the believer?
I feel like I could strangle Doggett at times when he gives me that skeptical 
look!
Did I do that to you?

I'm sorry.
For all those times I scoffed at your theories...
For my doubt and skepticism and strict scientific analysis.
How did you put up with me?????

I need you.
To balance me...
To provide the other half of the equation.
I know how to question and test hypotheses.
But I am certainly no Mulder when it comes to making such hypotheses and 
those leaps!

You said before that I made you a whole person.
I didn't understand then.
But I do now...
And I want to be whole again.

MULDER!