From: sarah loreth Date: Thu, 26 Jun 2003 13:00:57 -0700 (PDT) Subject: Worries 1/1 SarahL Source: xff TITLE: Worries 1/1 AUTHOR: Consortium EMAIL ADDRESS: Itchy2587@aol.com DISTRIBUTION STATEMENT: Archive anywhere just as long as my header is attached and I am notified so I can visit my children. RATING: PG CLASSIFICATION: S, DRR, RPOV SPOILER WARNING: Season 9 SUMMARY: Monica thinks things over. DISCLAIMER: I don't own them. Alas *puts back of hand to forehead dramatically* they belong to CC and company. FEEDBACK: Send all feedback to Itchy2587@aol.com I love it and will love you forever. ~*~ I've seen a lot of weird stuff in my years with the FBI, more so now that I joined The X-Files. But that last casefeelings I have never felt before came rushing in, my senses heightened, my eyes saw things that weren't really there. And John. He knew it was a game all along. One twisted game of cause and effect and still yet he felt that evil. The red burning hatred surrounding everything the professor touched. Dana and I couldn't see past the paranormal aspects of the case to notice the man orchestrating this entire scheme but John surprised me by overlooking evidence. He has always been straight laced and by the book. And to do that. The professor must have really gotten to him. I wonder what he said. I have the sudden insuppressible urge to see my partner. These thoughts make me fear for him. What is it about the X-Files that sucks people in and squeezes them until what care for rules they had is gone? Dana once had a chance at a promising career, but being assigned to this division has taken its toll on her. She has lost so much! It's amazing how she can stay so strong. Her child and the idea that Mulder will come home one day must help her a great deal. She loves him so. I guess she still holds on to her dream of having a normal family. Just the thought of that makes me smile. Mulder and Scully normal? They are anything but. I mean for the first six years Mulder was on the X-Files he didn't even own a bed or a bedroom for that matter. Dana and I get together sometimes. Our favorite thing to talk about is our partners. When she first told me that he never had a bed I thought she was kidding. Who doesn't have a bed? She talks about her Mulder while I talk about John. Mostly the disappearance of his son and how our friendship grew into what it is today. I wish I could have known Luke. He was a wonderful child well, from what I've heard. So loving and so happy. Who could kill an innocent child? My eyes were never dry when I was working that case. I could never fully understand John's pain, I mean not really, but I could feel it. I remember the day when Luke was found. He was laying face down in a field looking so peaceful. As if he was sleeping. Then John approached slowly and saw him. He collapsed to his knees and sobbed. That killed me. Tore my heart from my chest. I told the officers to leave the scene so John could say good-bye but I stayed close to his side. I took him home afterwards and we stayed up all night sharing happy memories. Before I left he pulled me into a hug and gently kissed my cheek. I think that was the moment I feel in love with him. I was transferred to New Orleans a few weeks later but John and I kept in touch. Then the X-Files brought us back together. This is my dream job working with people I love and admire. The X-Files causes so much pain, but I think I'll stay awhile.